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25/12/2011 5.41am

2011-12-25T06:07:00.000+08:00

~*25/12/2011 了
圣诞节快乐。。。。不知道大家过得如何呢？
精彩吗？
圣诞夜，失身夜。。今天有多少个失身了呢？

~*我听说一个女孩的不可思议。
这女孩，今年的圣诞也像往常，平平淡淡。
Christmas Eve，大家晚上都会去party，一起庆祝count down。
但是这女孩并没有出去。
她静静地呆在家里。
她在等待，因为男孩对她说，我今晚会早回来，带你去吃碌碌。
虽然女孩知道，有点不可能。但是她任然还是抱着希望。

~*无意间，女孩得知男人去了一个地方。
原本，女孩也是可以去。
还能够好好的庆祝这个圣诞佳节。
但是，男孩并没有告诉到女孩。
虽然女孩觉得有点失落，也许她能够去哪儿找朋友。
但是，既然男孩说会回来陪女孩，女孩就静静的等待了。

~*女孩在房间静静，乖乖的看戏。
等待男孩工作回来。
女孩并不生气。
12 点，1点，2点......
女孩等了又等，还是不见男孩的踪影。
女孩开始有点不开心了，也有点失落，伤心，后悔。
她为什么要等？！她为什么要坚持？！她为什么不自己出去玩？！她在等什么？！明明知道，是不可能.....
但是女孩还是选择了等待！因为她相信男孩。

~*3点....
男孩回来了。
男孩带了一袋毛公仔回来给女孩。
但是她要的并不是这些！
放下了袋子，男孩又出去了。
女孩很失望，把袋子打开，然后扔开！
娃娃全部掉落在地上....
女孩继续看戏。

~*女孩收到男孩的信息。
男孩说“我在工作不是在玩，不要发脾气好吗？我也很烦”
女孩看了，心已经麻木了，没感觉。
继续看戏。
为什么男孩从来没有体谅过女孩呢？
为什么男孩可以这样责怪女孩呢？
为什么男孩都不懂女孩在想什么，要什么呢？
女孩没有哭，没有掉眼泪。

~*女孩累了。
眼镜好累好累....不想等了。
虽然一个人睡觉，女孩很怕。
但是.....
突然“叮叮” 几声，吓醒了女孩。
女孩以为是飞蟑螂，张开了眼睛，四处看看。
没有.....
女孩又睡去了。

~*4点，男孩回来了。
女孩模模糊糊的发觉....但，女孩没有醒过来。
男孩，就睡在女孩旁边。
突然！
女孩发觉有东西在身上走动，醒来了!看一看....
没有东西。
又睡去了....
突然！
女孩又发觉有东西在身上走动！醒来了！！！
竟然发现一只蟑螂。
女孩的眼镜顿时大了，清清楚楚的看到蟑螂就在面前！
臭蟑螂，死蟑螂，女孩最痛恨的蟑螂！

~*女孩立刻爬起身。
男人问都没有问，继续睡觉。
女孩跑出去，在外面沙发躺着。
女孩一直想到那个情景，很恐怖，很可怕。
女孩，拿起了毛经，去冲凉，因为她觉得很肮脏！很恶心！
男孩，还是没有理会女孩。
直到女孩要去房间拿枕头。
男孩说“什么东西？有蟑螂？谁把东西这样乱乱丢得？”
女孩不理会男孩说什么....看着那只蟑螂在旁边听着。
很怕.....很怕....

~*男孩看见了，就起身抓起了蟑螂。
蟑螂死了。
男孩叫女孩进去睡觉。
女孩拒绝了。因为她还觉得很恐惧。
男孩不了解。
男孩发脾气了。
“我4点才回来，现在要睡觉，你....”
女孩一点都不觉得奇怪，因为男孩从来都不会为女孩牺牲自己的睡眠。
男孩从来都会为自己的睡眠，而发脾气。
男人，根本没有体谅女孩的心情。
女孩，这次哭了......一滴一滴的眼泪掉了下来。
女孩痛了，心痛了....

~*一个什么样的圣诞节？
她宁愿平平凡凡，没有人一起庆祝。
女孩寂寞了....
也不想发生这样的事情。
女孩，不要再傻了。
女孩，走吧......

在外国，圣诞节是很浪漫的节日。
在国内也不例外。
每个人都希望圣诞节可以跟自己心爱的人庆祝，交换礼物。
跟心爱的人一起玩，一起疯狂。
单身的，就希望跟朋友一起疯，跟朋友一起喝酒聊天，聚在一起。
圣诞节的到来，也代表一年即将要结束了。
在结束这一年，大家都希望可以有一个圆满的结束，圆满的开始。
一失足成千古恨，千万不要做令自己后悔的事情......
因为遗憾只会让自己痛苦.....
因为回忆，永远就只能够埋藏在深处.....

-寂寞的夜晚，善媚-

新包装 New Packaging. ：D

2011-12-20T14:27:00.000+08:00

~*长大了，20岁了.....
转眼间，时间真的过得很快。
有点喘不过气，有点难以自信。
岁月一直一直的过，的确很难坑。路途中，有很多绊脚石。

~*我上大学了。
大学？有种让人很自豪的感觉。
很多人听见你在读大学，都会很羡慕，觉得你很了不起。
再加上是科学系，他们更敬佩不已。
其实，对我来说，好像来得有点快了。
我适合读大学吗？？我还好像很想要玩的感觉。
大学，让我觉得有点恐怖。呵呵。

~*大学生活。
我读的科系是
BSC ( HONS ) BIOMEDICAL SCIENCES 3+0 WITH NORTHUMBRIA UNIVERSITY UK
是英国的科系... 虽然我很想要出国读书，但是却没有那个资格和能力。
但是，这样，也算是了了我的心愿。
还真的没有想过有这样的机会。因为一路上，都一直遇到挫折和失败！
还以为，跟书已经断绝了关系，无缘了。哈哈...
我们的笔记，考试全部都是跟随英国安排。
我们的考试也会让他们过目。
这是成绩的排名：

80-100 FIRST i HONOUR
70-79 FIRST ii HONOUR
65-69 SECOND HONOUR
50-64 THIRD HONOUR
40-49 FOURTH HONOUR (BOTHER LINE OF FAILING)
<35 FAIL

~*我的考试。

虽然题目都是我有读的。但是不知道会不会粗心呢？

粗心都是我的家常便饭！哈哈... 都改不了！

好想在第一次考试拿到1st honour。因为我知道接下来，自己可能都没有这样的本事了。

我的科目有：

GENETIC
IMMUNOLOGY
BIOCHEMISTRY
ANATOMY AND PHYSIOLOGY
CELL BIOLOGY
ENGLISH
PROFESSIONAL AND TRANSFERABLE SKILL

这些科目里面，还有很多的琐琐碎碎比如 CLINICAL IMMUNOLOGY, MICRO BIOCHEM.

啊啊啊~

~*出来可以是什么？

PATHOLOGIST

SCIENTIST

LAB

FORENSIC SCIENCE

大致上的都是这些。其实还可以有很多的出路。还可以当医生。

虽然从小到大我的愿望就是当医生，但是也许毕业后，我不会选择读医生吧。哈哈。

我也蛮喜欢研究的。喜欢发现新东西，好奇心强。

我希望能够发明新药物，可以让爸爸的病有得医，虽然我知道需要很长的时间。

但是这个是我以前就想要做的。

~*我的大学生活

GENETIC PRACTICAL ONION DNA

CELL BIOLOGY (GRAM-POSTIVE&NEGATIVE BACTERIA)

HAIR

E.COLI

IMMUNOLOGY PRACTICAL(COAGULATION)

SHEEP BLOOD

CELL BIOLOGY

~*分享完毕

就这样。简简单单的，快快冲冲的过了一个学期。

放假至 16、1、2012

-vivy-

沉默的夜晚。。。

2011-02-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

突然，我情不自禁的哭了起来。

为什么呢？

我最近都很烦！我跟他，几乎每天都吵架。

其实，大家吵架的事情，都是一样的。

为什么事情解决了，还是会发生呢？

是我说得不够好？还是，你根本没有心在听。

我跟着你聊天，我的眼泪就一直掉下来。

我们在一起，已经要近两年了。

教你人生道理，教你做男朋友的责任，告诉你什么是爱情。

要你改变你的脾气，不是因为我自己，是为了你自己。

你改变了，我根本不会得到什么利益。

自己的脾气变好了，你不开心吗？

出来与别人见面，沟通，都会方便点，人也会比较开心。

对我，你可以在乎点，体贴点，关心点吗？

突然间，我真的觉得累了。

我累了一次一次又重复一样的东西。

一次又一次的去面对同样的事情。

我是很希望你改变，可是已经太迟了。

当你要改变的时候，我的心已经变了。

我对你的感情已经淡了。

我真的很不希望这一天的来临。

以前，我会很害怕你离开我。我不舍得你，是因为我真的爱你。我不离开你，是因为我相信有一天你一定能够改变。我的真情，能够打动你吗？我傻傻的相信　“会”。

可是我发觉我现在真的累了！厌倦了！

我讨厌这样的感情生活！

原来，我是会累的。

原来，我始终还是不能够改变你。

我没有那个力量让你改变，让你听话。

也许，你的朋友，家人对你来说会比较重要。

他们说的话，你会比较在乎。

你每次都说，有在听我说话，有把握的话放在心上。

我根本不知道要不要相信你。但是最后我还是选择相信你。

我还是会傻傻的相信你！毫无犹豫的相信你！

我相信你是爱我的！我相信你不会好象其他人一样背叛我！我相信你是不一样的！

是我白痴吗？还是我太天真？

男人 vs 是/不是处女的妻子

2010-12-21T23:56:00.001+08:00

小杰和小明是中学时的朋友...
后来，他们一起上了大学...
虽然感情还不算很好，
但也一起租了一间房子...

有一天，小杰认识了一位女生，叫小雪...
小杰喜欢上小雪，
常常有事没事的找小雪...
小雪也对小杰有好感...
不久后，两人便开始交往了...

交往了几个月，学校就开始大放假...
这一天，小明需跑回家乡一趟，
大概三天才回来...
房子就只剩下小杰...

小明走后，
小雪也有过来陪小杰看戏，弄些吃的之类的...
也会帮忙小杰做家务...
但是小雪没有过夜，小杰也没要求小雪留下...

后来小明回来了，
很明显家里有着曾经被女人打扫过的痕迹...
小明坏坏的问小杰：
“诶，是不是趁我不在，就把小雪带回家了啊你？”

小杰被同伴这么一问，马上反驳说：
“喂，你这是什么表情嘛？
是，我有带过她来，但她没过夜！我们什么也没做...”

“真的什么都没做？
我们都是室友了，用不着隐瞒啦！”

“真的没有啦！拜托！”
“哈！那你真是笨啦！难得你有机会却没好好利用！”

“我不是这样随便的人，好不好...”
“哎呀兄弟，是男人都会要的啦！什么随便不随便的...”

“喂，小雪很乖的啊！她说她从来没有那个的啊...”
“哇？处女？是不是的你！这样也不吃？”

“什么啦！哪里可以乱吃！”
“哈哈吃了再打算啦！真是的你... 不要和你讲了啦！不是男子汉一个...”

小明心里嘲笑小杰，
真的是错失一个大好机会...
现在都什么社会了，还不敢吃？哈哈！够笨啦...

后来的日子，每次小杰和小雪出去约会回来时，
小明都会坏坏的暗示说，“又没吃啊？哈哈！”
而小杰每次只丢了一个眼神过去...

虽然快一年了，
可是小杰和小雪因为某些原因分手了...
但小雪有时依然会来小杰他们的家里坐坐，
聊功课什么的...
功课比较好的小明常常教小雪功课，
结果却日久生情...
小明暗示小杰会不会介意自己和小雪交往，
小杰假假生气，丢了一块枕头过去，说：
“要死啊你！抢我以前的女朋友？好好对待她知道了没！”
“哈哈！是啦是啦...”
过了小明三个月的追求，小雪便答应和小明交往了...

日子过得很快，一下子他们终于都毕业了...
而小明的个性和小雪很配，所以他们感情很稳定...
结果过了半年，
已经交往三年的小明和小雪决定结婚了...
小杰和他新的女朋友也捧场了...

小明当天虽然有点醉，
但他永远记得小杰当晚对他说的一句话...

“明啊，哈哈！恭喜你啊！”
“杰？哈哈！谢谢！多久没看到你了？”

“嘿，很久了吧？想不到你今天真的结婚了！还比我早了一步！”
“哎呀放心你会赶上的啦！”

“哈哈！不过现在想起来，
你会不会感激我当年没有把你老婆给吃了？”

小明这时突然好像领悟到什么...
很感动的拍了拍小杰的肩膀，说：
“谢谢你当年有好好的照顾我老婆......”

世上的男人，
都希望婚前可以尝一口禁果...
但世上的男人，
也都希望自己未来的老婆还是个处女...

在吃禁果的时候，男人往往没有想过，
他们或许在搞着别人的女人...

而他们更没有想过的是，
别的男人或许在搞着自己的女人...

爱情不是用性关系来证明。没有了性，爱还是存在的！
难道每一个女友都要吃点吗？
你吃点，我吃点，女人就变成没有价值了。
吃了，不要留下剩菜，吃错了，会泻肚子，那你们有想过吗？？
吃的时候就过瘾，等到吃错了，就只会拍拍屁股走人。

你不在的时候，我有多难受。

2010-12-04T11:59:00.000+08:00

每一次
从你发给我的短信里
你对我说
“宝贝，我要去做工了…”
“宝贝，我要和朋友出去喝茶…”
“宝贝，我累了，先睡了哦…”
“宝贝，我忙一下，等下找你啊…”
“宝贝，……………………”

这些你忙而没有陪我的理由
总让我没有安全感和难受
但是我却不能怪你

你知道吗？

你不在的时候

我很茫然……（因为不知道要和谁聊心事）

你不在的时候

我会胡思乱想……（想你是不是对我厌倦了）

你不在的时候

我有多想拿起电话打给你……（想听你的声音）

你不在的时候

没人能安抚我的情绪……（心情低落，需要你的安慰）

你不在的时候

我的心里有多么寂寞……（只有你，我才不会感到寂寞）

你不在的时候

想找你却又找不到……（我想你了）

你不在的时候

心里觉得我被你遗弃了……（因为你冷漠的态度）

一旦我向你抱怨
你一定会不耐烦
甚至觉得我不可理喻
对我大声地说
“都和你说我在忙了！你怎么还不明白！”
“难道我喝个茶都不行吗？！”
“我累了！不想和你解释那么多！”
“………………”

我不想那样
我不想和你有任何的误会
所以
就算我心里有多难受
我还是选择沉默

只因为

我爱你！！！！！

情侣们

请不要忽略你另一半的感受

当你在忙的时候

请你用耐心的态度

和她/他好好说

尽量不要让她/他有被冷落的感觉

WORDS for HIM !

2010-11-18T13:38:00.001+08:00

~* I really BEH TAHAN arrrr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why i got such boyfriend ??????!!!!!!!!!!! OH GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One day i really can die cause by high bloody pressure and heart attack !!!! My god, my heart beat just can't back to normal for a second !

~* Im sorry but i have to say this ! Fuck you la !!!!!!!! Shut ur fucking mouth up and stop giving any nonsense excuse!!! And ya please don't make promise that u don't even know u can make it anot !!!!!!!!! Your " sure" is just " maybe " There's no guarantee on u !!!!!!! NO !!!!!!!!!!!! U fucking ass loser !

~* Why so hard to change nor teach u?! What ur brain made from? What ur head made from?! What ur heart made from?! U can dumb like nobody business !! Can u pls use ur bloody brain and think?! Oh god. You are the suckest boyfriend i have ever met in my life la !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can u just be like others?! Why im the only have to jealous seeing others so sweet and so understanding?!

~*Why u like everything to be last minute?! WHY !!!!!!!!!!!! Can't u do it straight away?! WHo know whats going to happen later on?! Bloody idiot !!!!!! Why only the things related to me u like to delay and take it easy?! Others stuff other people is so important to u instead of me huh?! Then might as well just break up !!!!! Seriously, sometimes i do think u're my regret !!!!!!!!!! REGRET TO HAVE U AS MY BOYFRIEND ! LSOER BOYFRIEND ! FUCK U !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~* You got no life man ! U are fucking 22 years old but ur brain like a fucking kinder garden kid ! U don't get a proper education doesn't mean that u're stupid ok?! Your brain don't function well? Can't u use ur fucking common sense to think and react?! You are just a waste of sperm ! A WASTE OF SPERM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHAME ON U ! PUI !

~* Want u to change !!!!!! But become worst n worst !!! SALAH JALAN LA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pusing balik la then !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE SERIOUSLY OMG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My anger is on top of the volcano d !!!!! MY GODNESS !!!!! Im a kind of impatient person. Don't make me remind n repeat so many times !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~* One day, im going to get fed up and have a big slap on ur idiot face ! Say byebye to u and go ! YIYER !!!!!!!!!!! GERAM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If your future child know u're their dad, they rather not to be born in this world !

～我的他，他的我～

2010-11-14T15:59:00.001+08:00

呵呵！愛我的他，愛他的我～

～＊快樂的時光縂要過去！哎，可是怎麽那麽快啊～　我回去了，我們就要分開了！之後的日子會如何呢？沒得見面的日子如何呢？老公～～～～～～～如何？！

我囘去了，沒有人再跟你察背了～沒人會打你，沒人跟你耍賴，沒人跟你閙變扭了～沒人抱抱你了，沒人逗你了，沒人會無力有的罵你愛你，沒人再氣你了．
而我呢，沒人給我指示了，沒人陪我半夜上厠所，沒人陪我出去吃串串～沒人陪我看鬼戯，沒人讓我親親了。

～＊我說我想見你，你會來。我回去了呢？我說我想見你，我知道你根本不會出現在我面前的。沒得大大聲的聊天，吵架，討論，嘻嘻哈哈的！如何呢？我不在了，你我會變嗎？你會一直跟朋友在一起不再理我了嗎？你會不會看別的女子阿？你會不會變心呢？你說“愛你”的次數會不會減少阿？我們還會有多少個周年呢？

～＊一個月，；兩個月，三個月不見面是怎樣的呢？如何渡過呢？？？時間一直走，一天一天的慢慢過，我們分離的時間就越來越近。我真的很害怕那天的來臨！我不要！我不要失去我們倆小口在一起的日子。我不要帶著回憶過日子。想你，好苦～

～＊可是我知道，我的離開，你可以更專心的工作和做你的東西。爲了我們的將來，我們都要一起努力～要多多錢，才可以結婚～才可以見爸爸媽媽。。你知道爲什麽！我也希望看到你成功的一天～你說之後回去讀書～對對！有心不怕遲。。。。。。。。雖然我每次都說你沒有用，其實我才覺得自己沒有用，你很厲害了～只是希望我不在，你可以交點好的朋友，離開那個地方，離開以前，從新開始！沒問題～我會等你的！

～＊還有我的戒指阿！！白金的～有鑽石的！呵呵。。。我們小小的屋子，充滿了我們倆的氣息～啊啊啊啊啊啊。。。之後不能再分開了！我不能比你早死，你也不能比我早死，我們要一起死！所以～我們要養好健康，讓自己無遺憾。。。呵呵呵呵呵呵～

～＊你說，你是我的，誰都不能動。你說，爲什麽我會那麽愛你啊？我真的不知道！你很吸引我。你說，以後要讓你每個月都可以有錢出去逛街。你說，我自己辛苦自己餓沒關係，老婆不能！你說，老婆的一滴眼淚是老公的一道傷痕，老婆的傷是老公的命。你說，我不會不要你的，除非是你不要我罷了！你說，你不能這樣將自己拉！你說的每一句話我都很在意的阿，我很心痛。你說，愛你的我是沒有停止的，我會精力把自己改到最好！

～＊你說　“如果今天你離開我，是我李俊偉的錯，我的不好，我的損失！”

不，如果你離開我，才是我的損失啊～在那裏我能夠找到一個為我任勞任怨的男人？在那裏我能夠找到一個不顧一切都只是爲了我的男人？在那裏我能夠找到一個愛我如此深的男人？在那裏我能夠找到一個對我不離不棄的男人？

老公，只有你。只有你一個，李俊偉！

决定

2010-11-14T15:17:00.000+08:00

如今的我~

哎，明年我就从1变2 了。。。。

感觉好像美眉 ---〉噢巴桑！！！！！

我接受不了咯~

好了，我已经在外头读书有1年半了。。

还有一个星期就毕业了！！！5张纸。

12 张纸，定了我的人生。如今的我，头脑一片空白。妈妈问 “过后你要做什么? 你决定什么？” 老实说，妈妈每次问我这个问题，我都没有办法给她答案。因为自己知道自己的事。我真的已经不再是读书的材料吗？一次一次的努力，接着一次一次的失败。那种滋味真的不好受。我并不要求我所付出的会带来很大的回报，可是也不至于那么差吧？？？我的努力不需要给别人看见，我自己知道就好。我是真的很认真地读书，我问心无愧！可是，事实告诉了我 “善媚，你还是输了。而且还输得很难看！” 当时的我，真的心碎！
没关系，再次给我自己机会。可是呢？我真的不知道。为何我读的会忘记呢？为什么我对我的问答没有信心呢？唉唉唉~~~~~~~为什么luck 总不站在我这里啊！

得到了成绩过后，如果是不好的呢？会怎样呢？过后的路要如何走呢？这时候，我就要做决定了！一個決定可以讓你幸福一世，同時它也能夠讓你後悔一世！
難道我應該在別的方面發揮？如果我不深造，別人會怎樣看我呢？？？爸爸媽媽會不會失望呢？爸爸給了我選擇，如今，我的人生就在她的手上了，我必須依照他的選擇去做！我不讀書，親戚會怎樣看我呢？看我們呢？別人呢？他們會說什麽呢？唉，不懂！

其實，我自己出來住，也比之前獨立了很多！思想也不同了！原來我在別的方面也能夠發揮，我也能夠做到，這是我根本都沒有閑過的。對，之前的我真的很注重學業。對我而言，沒有讀書的人就不能成功，沒有文憑就根本什麽都不是！可是，我們不是富有家庭，既然我選擇了就要繼續讀下去！不想跳草，不想浪費爸爸媽媽的錢。他們為我真的付出了很多。
在我男朋友身上，我也學了不少東西。也不再那麽眼淺了！哈哈，看到他，我體會了不少。他，雖然沒有什麽學業，可是他會找自己的長處，他很有頭腦，努力的往上爬。不同的是，我在努力的讀書，他在努力的工作。哈哈！他說，沒讀書就沒讀書，不是我不要讀，我很喜歡看書，可是就是讀不到。其實他也有個破裂的家庭啦。你讀了書，出來就是要做功，如果我有錢，你會問我有多少文憑嗎？有多高的學歷嗎？不！好好的工作賺錢啦。

其實爸爸有跟姐姐說過，爸爸要我們讀書只是要我們能夠養活自己而已。對我也一樣，他要我能夠得到工作，有錢養活自己，生活沒問題！哈哈！我知道了拉～反正考試我就會努力，之後怎樣，就隨便吧！我，已經看開了。別人要怎樣看我無所謂。每個人都有不同之処，你我不同！我只是要賺到錢，換錢給爸爸，讓他能夠去旅行。他已經不再是以前年輕力壯的爸爸了。他是一個老爸爸了，老安哥！不需要再讓爸爸媽媽工作了。我愛你們！

味道，不一樣！

2010-05-26T18:09:00.002+08:00

~*今天，考完事。
去 FTZ 玩 Left4Dead 新出的Chapter
不好玩！！！！！！超級無聊和悶！

~*然後，回家，開冰箱。
那了一罐汽水。
我愛喝的！還就都沒喝了。

Justea ~ Green tea with Aloe Vera bites !
以前在 Cafeteria 喝，好好喝哦！
第一口，就愛上了它。
我愛和的綠茶，還有ru hui (不會寫？）！
這個口味很難找。
打開來喝。
哦？怎麽不一樣味道了呢？
是我忘記了它的味道，還是它真的不一樣了？
我不喜歡了。

~*突然閒，我有點感觸。
有些事情或人物，我是不是也忘了呢？
最近，有很多人 Add 我 Fabebook 。
可是，很多都是我不認識，沒印象。
怎麽了，我很記得在我身邊出現過的每一個人！
是我變了嗎？還是，他們不一樣了！

~*我不喜新厭舊。
最多時不用，不穿。
可是到了某些時間，我就會很懷念它們！
我又會拿出來用。
怎麽一個人，我也可以忘記呢？

~*會不囘，有天，我也把一個對我很重要的人或東西給忘記了！
我不要~~~我要記得你們！！！
其實想想，有時候。
某些事情，某些人，讓你沒什麽好感，你真的記也不會記。
有時候，看到別人做了某些事情，或看見某些東西，你會覺得很熟悉，可是怎麽也記不起來。
有時候，我們在某年某月某日看見某人，和他閒聊幾句，我們會發覺原來他還是一樣或原來他已經變了，不時以前的他。
其實有時候，不是我們把事情給忘了，而是事情不一樣了。

~*就像，當初的我們。
小孩子，愛哭愛閙。
好氣又頑皮。
可是，長大了，都不一樣了。
也許我們都變成文靜，禮貌，有禮的人。
老了，也不能像當年蹦蹦跳跳。

~*呵呵，
有時候，把事情忘了，也不是一件壞事。
至少，記不起來，當初的你做了什麽，傷害了別人有多深，作了什麽很糗的事情。
可是，你只知道，那件事情，你不囘再犯了！
我們要讓它不一樣，可是就不能忘記它。
因爲，它是讓你成長，學會在你的人生怎麽做人！

還有，
我不能忘記我的 Rocky ！！！！！！！！

Rocky.. 我愛你！！！！

-一樣味道的善媚-

~我的小甜甜~

2010-05-26T17:36:00.001+08:00

~*昨天， 25日5月2010。
老公放假！是星期二！
原本他是星期一放假的哦！
都是，無良老闆的錯！
星期日作到那麽夜了，隔天也不給員工休息！
錢是賺不完的拉！！！有時候，真的很生氣！

~*昨天，考完試了。
4.30 下午。
Ning 就載我和老公去 Sunway Pyramid ！
下車時，還有 Jockey 幫我開車門！
哈哈！有點嚇倒，也有點不好意思 *害羞*

~*然後我們去吃 Sushi King ！

我很快就叫了 California Hand roll。兩個哦！
好好吃啊~ 鎮的很滿足！ Amusha ....
藍色，紅色，粉紅色，黃色，紫色的碟全部都有哦！
最後阿~ 吃了 RM51 哦~
好飽好飽哦！
總算吃囘本了！哈哈哈。。。想吃那麽久，可是一直都沒機會吃！

~*然後我們去戲院。
有什麽戯看呢？我好想看鬼戯哦~
可惜有沒有！
最後，就看了 Once a Gangster. 什麽風中卷。
老公說， a Bird 説好看。
7.10 pm 哦！
看見還有時間，我們去了 Arcade 玩~
哇！我當然玩我最愛的啦~~~~~~
打倒手好痛哦！！！！
然後玩，槍！
玩了3個遊戲！老公全部都輸給我~~~~
好爛哦！找藉口說，如果我玩你愛玩的，一定輸給你！
哈哈哈哈。。。。

~*哦！要到時間了。
買了 Combo 1, 一個 Popcorn，兩杯 Coke..
排隊進場！！
對了！！！我忘了說~
我們買的是 *情侶座位* 哦。。 *害羞*
第一次耶！！！真的很不同~ 沒有東西隔著，還可以抱抱！
嘻嘻！
可是哦，老公說，他跟過一個女孩子坐~
哼！大膽！可是沒關係，都過了~
而且那時候是因爲沒位子坐，朋友給了他那個座位~

~*電影是好笑，
可是，不怎麽明白~
老公還一直解釋給我聼。
黑色會的東西嘛，我都不會！
呵呵，整體來説，很無聊。

~*看完戲了，去上廁所。
不懂怎麽的，吵架了！
也忘了到底是怎樣。
我的錯？老公的錯？搞不懂~
其實哦，我很想跟老公一起去吃 BBQ Plaza ！
昨天，是去了，可是不開心。
我不能跟你吵架，只好裝作沒事情。
壓在心裏，對你假笑。
你也知道，可是沒辦法。
我做不到若無其事！因爲很痛~

~*回家，我也不想講多。
睡覺就好。
不知怎麽的，我哭了起來。
你不喜歡看見我哭，因爲你會心疼！
所以你也發脾氣~
哎，大家都把事情好好的說出來不就好了麽？

~*其實哦，跟你在一起還有兩天就一年了！
我禮讓，體諒，容忍了你多少。
彼此知道！
愛情，付出多少不代表就有多少收穫。
可是，別人對你付出的，自己也要囘做人。
好好珍惜，讓別人的付出也是值得的！
愛情裏，少了關心，就是沒了感情。
愛情裏，沒有得計較你容忍多少，別人也要這樣。
愛情裏，沒有別人對你怎樣，你也要學樣。
愛情裏，一切東西又是沒有限的！
其實，都希望大家真的能夠永久。
只要你肯改變，我們的問題就會減少！
而且，來來去去，問題的存在只有一種~

~*你要加油哦！
我會等你的！
等到你，真正的改變，真正的學會！
我們就一定能夠永久！
愛情，還有很多東西讓你來學呢！
嘻嘻！

還記得，這張偉生紙嗎？

-愛你的老婆上-

Re memory...

2010-05-26T17:07:00.000+08:00

~*最近，都在忙著考試。
A-Level 其實，也不是那麽容易考的。
剛好，我們這年又那麽倒黴。
Grade 不能改變了，反而還要提高。

~*唉，還剩下3張紙。
考了那麽多，真正有信心的才寥寥無幾。
我真的能做到嗎？
還有一次大考，就是注定了我的前途。
過了這個學期，我一定要更努力了！
因爲，容易的已經過了！
要面對的，就不只是先在這樣的！
我答應自己，一定要奮鬥！！到最後。
失敗沒關係最重要，是付出過，又努力過！
一定要對得起自己~~~

~*人慢慢的長大，經歷的東西也會不一樣。
我，學會了。學會了不再讓別人失望。
學會了，不能再小孩子氣。
學會了，更加的容忍。
還有很多人在等著我證明給他們看！
其實，這些都是包袱。
一旦失敗，不只是自己難過，也讓別人難過。
要顧到自己的感受，同時也要顧到別人的感受。
這，不容易做。
可是，我，學會了！

~*朋友嗎？
其實，我並不在逃避些什麽。
只是，不想去面對你們。
有時候，覺得很不自在，我不喜歡這些感覺。
也許吧，厭倦了。
我也慢慢的放下，不去理會那麽多。
因爲，我始終都是不捨得失去你們！
一切都像正常了，大家也開心。
從前從前，就算了吧。

我還在等，我的生日驚喜呢！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
我愛你們~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

做我老婆好不好？？

2010-02-09T22:55:00.001+08:00

徐譽滕：做我老婆好不好

網友們的心聲：

~*呵呵~ 其實這首歌很簡單。每深麽音調也沒什麽動力。

可是我就是很喜歡。如果我結婚也能聼到那該多好~

要老公唱的！！！

~*我們在一起都9個月了。很快就要一年了~

我真的不敢相信阿！

想想剛開始跟你認識，然後在一起。

真的很快，很突然。竟然到達九個月了~

很可惜，這周月，我們都不能一起慶祝。

因爲你工作的關係~

呵呵！

~*老公，

你還記得我們之間的感情發生過什麽事嗎？

看看，你都應改是不記得。

你記性那麽差！而且都漠不關心！

不懂你在想什麽。惡！

~*唉，

其實我們什麽都經歷過。

分手也有~什麽都有。

可是並沒有正式分手！

就是説，我們的感情都沒斷過！

哈哈~ *安爽*

雖然，每次每次都囘鬥氣，鬥嘴~

可是到最後都囘變得若無其實~

呵呵。。

我承認，又時候我是很特地的！！

我就是很特地

~*感情從惡劣變到很好！

說真的，我真的很開心 =D

你也有了改變~

我感覺到了你緊張我哦！雖然你不說~ =p

還記得那時我跟一個男生講電話~

都是為了鬥氣罷了啦！而且前幾天他找我，我也沒有囘。

你又一直玩電腦，叫你也不理我！！

呵呵~你瞪了我一眼！=p

挂了電話，你還說干嘛不繼續阿？

我就說好啊！*那起電話*

你竟然抱著我~

“老婆啊。。”

我還很特地的說干嘛阿？不是叫我繼續嗎？幹嗎不給？

你很害羞得說

“我吃醋拉，我不喜歡！只有我能跟你講電話！”

好幸福哦！！！！！！！！老公~~~

我不想離開你！！！！！

惡！我答應過我自己

我不可以背叛你，不離開你，因爲我是愛你的！

恩愛~ 賭氣~

老公，雖然我不能無時無刻都陪在你身邊。

可是我的心永遠都有你的存在，直到我的心停止跳動。

就算我死了，我還會留下我的貝殼。

Oppss..

2010-01-02T12:34:00.001+08:00

~*Ok.
me, myself already sick for ages.
from the day i got chicken pox ! PLOX !!!!!!!
damn angry..
after fever den headache, flu, cough, sore throat.

~*I really OMG.
school gonna start d.
i have to go back Subang by tomorrow.

~*Yesterday dad bring us to eat DIM SUM ~~
yummy yummy...
but Quantan, where got nice DIM SUM .. ==
i missed the KL ones !!!

~*After finished our dinner,
we went to East Cost Mall.
Oh ~~
have a nice walk lol.

~*Then , get to home.
after reached home, dad asked me to take flu medic.
at first i ignored him.
but then for while i quickly ran and reach for the medic.
just to avoid his mumbler and shouting lar.

~*So, i saw a tablet of pills on his own medicine.
so i tot it was ACTIFED !
it's yellow in color.
same like what i saw the other days.

~*I shouted : pa, this is the medic rite. yellow color 1 !
no reply.
so i took 1 and ate it !

~*" Hey ... u eat which medicine ???!!! "
i ran to the kitchen.
i pointed, "neh, dis 1"
woops !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S THE MEDICINE OF HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE !!!! =x =x

hahahaha......

~*OMG, i and my sister kept laughing, non stop!
LOL !!!!
forget bout it lar.. so embarrassed ! ish.

~*Then after that i went into my room.
i was still laughing, my grandma woke.
then i asked her that why never tell me that is hypertension's medic.
i tot you also take it?
LOL !!
she said i never show her.. >< kakakak..

k lar. end of my joke.

don't remember dis scenario d !!!

-stupid sm-

Some words

2009-12-09T23:48:00.005+08:00

~*Recently, joining friends for outing.
it was happy and joyful.
merrily.

~*But still,
felt that we are so far.
although they are just beside.

~*Is this call starting of a new friendship ?
we are not the last time.
so we are the new.

~*It's hard to get into everything of them.
but,
still happy to have friends like them
ya.

-sm-

The words..

2009-12-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

~*Having school holiday for 1 month onward to next year
5th January 2009.

~*Before i back to Quantan,
i went to Cameron Highland.
don't ask me why my friends, u all knew it.
to pay a visit to my dear?

~*A sudden decision for me.
i brought the ticket and went up to the bus.
how brave am i ^^
i told sis before this.
my parents do not know.
i really felt guilt for this.
being a liar .

~*I stayed there for almost 1 week.
told my dad holiday will be started on 1st December.
asked my bro to fetch me back.
so i need to go back.

~*In the week i stay there.
i really get into his life.
i understood his life there and the activities he does everyday.

~*He work from 12pm to late 11pm.
sometimes until midnight.
he's really tired enough.
and his aunt's massage shop, he just like the manager there.
he has to bank in, in-charge in everything.
sometimes, i really feel angry.
why? why the workers there can't lend a hand?
he need to do 2 works instead of 1.
he is just alone.
cleaning and laundry job why can't they help?
i really don't understand what in their mind.
self-fishness.

~*One of the workers is a Chinese women.
she is a mother with 3 child and hubby.
she taught me lot.
she gave me lots of advises.
i do appreciate her.
but she like to smoke and drink.
i really can't take it.
sometimes, i think that she's a little sarcastic.
over-loaded show off.
but yet, she's still a nice person.
maybe we are from different world.

~*Dear really wanted to earn a lot of money.
for his future and our future.
but i really don't want he work so hard.
his heart is weak.
sometimes he feel hard to breath too.
i knew that, and it will become more n more serious.
i really don't hope what in my mind really happens.

~*Next year,
he will follow his god father to Puchong and help him out there.
i don't really know whether he will stay with me anot.
but, i hope yeap.
i can take care of him.
and i know that i need him too.

~*I really tired of argument.
long distance is hard to control both of us.
i really wish to stop everythings that happening on us now.
i'm really sick of it.

-shan mei-

朋友

2009-10-21T18:37:00.001+08:00

～＊至　：　想多多的那位

最近我忙著考試，只是偶爾發覺你的不是．

如今，考完試了，才有時閒好好的看看你們的部落各．

感受你們的感受．

讓我也給回你一句話吧～

有你這個朋友真好！

想，不是不好．可是不要想到坏的東西出來就好．

以前的事，就算了，我們依然還是朋友阿！

有時候，還是要冷靜下來，好好想想．

你有問題，大家會一起解決．

不會因爲你的改變，而離你而去！

我，是不會的！

以前，我們真的過著風風雨雨的日子．

你被別人影響，誤會很深．

可是我從來沒有怪過你或任何人．

只希望有一天你們會明白，醒過來就好了！

出來讀書了，你會主動聯絡我，也會注意我的一切．

我的一舉一動～真的很欣慰，很安慰．

因爲，還有你，會記得我！

至少，我能感覺到，我還是存在的！

謝謝你不時地培著我，我也希望你有問題時我能陪著你！

要記得，我的耳朵和肩膀不需要借，它們常在你身邊．

～＊至　：　煩，而突然覺得自己變得很糟糕的那位

還記得嗎，我們以前曾經一年沒有講過話～

我在你眼中，就好像一把火．

你對我，又罵又恨的．

我還記得，那時候某人生日，你買了蛋糕．

藍莓蛋糕．

她，請我吃了一塊．

你發現后，大發脾氣．

還罵了我＂那麽肥了，還吃，豬＂

那時的我，真的很傷心．

曾經拿麽要好的朋友，難聽的話竟然從你嘴邊說出．

其實我在接過那蛋糕之前，我拒絕，深怕你不高興．

可是，看在朋友份上，就接過了．

呵呵，此刻想起，真的很心酸，心痛．

忍著淚，不哭．

那麽的過了一年，我們突然合好了．

這天，我等了多麽的久！沒有放棄過！

你也曾經受過很多傷害，偶爾我都會在你身邊陪你．

可是你要的不是我．

也許，我是一個過路人，代替著某個他來陪你．

你擺脫了任性，頑固，衝動，坏脾氣～

變成一個會為人著想，體貼，容忍，耐心的人～

很好，很為你高興！

你對以前的你說了再見！＝）

你也很關心我，有時也會找我，跟我聊天，陪我說廢！

謝謝你。很值得了

以下的朋友，不知道你們會看見嗎。

也許我在你們的心目中，根本不重要。

在你們的腦海，也不會想起我。

就算我們有多好，到最後，我還是一個“空”。

雖然我們很靠近，可是，我從來都不會讓你們想起。

我們的曾經曾經，已經是以前了。

現在的我們，就好像陌生人，從新開始認識！

～＊至：呆裏呆氣的那位，也是我曾經要好的那位。

我還記得，我們是突然閒變得很談得來。

以前我們就好只是同班同學的關係。

大家都不認識彼此。

那時候，我因爲被一個朋友誤會的。

其他的，也隨著他離我而去。

我，遇上了你。

你關心的問我，幫我。

最後，我們變成新朋友！

覺得你很單純，很簡單，很容易諞，不會埋怨。

是一個，你來你去的朋友。

不會暫別人便宜，不會想著做壞事，很幫人。

傻傻的！

日子久了，我們就變成無話不談的朋友。

我們都有自己的秘密。

還記得那時候的你，被班上的一位同學喜歡上了。

很多人都不鼓勵你跟他在一起。

你問我，該怎麽辦？你也喜歡他，可是。。。。

很多很多的難題發生在你們之間。

我也不能幫多，為有告訴你一些道理，讓你自己去解決。

一個一個的幫你解決～

在你姑姑傢，過夜。

聊了很多東西，也開解了你。

好了，你出去讀書了。

我們不在像以前一樣，每天見面，每天聊天。

以前的你，都會問我一些傻傻的問題，有的沒的。

我來到這裡的幾天，你都關照我。

日子久了，我們就好像陌生人一樣，不認識了。

縂覺得我們之間，好像被什麽隔離了。

不多話，不親密。

你和他在一起，你有點害怕，有點擔心。

我知道！

其實，以後的事想也沒有用。

如果往往想著以後的事，那什麽事都做不成。

如果萬一，所想的以後的事并沒有發生，那就只有兩個字“後悔”

不要常做些後悔的事，也不要怕！

想到就去做！不適又何知呢？

我們雖然已經不好了，但是沒關係，曾經擁有就好了。

一切都變成了回憶。

謝謝

～＊至：被愛情傷害過，失眠，回想的朋友！

想到以前就真的很好笑。

我們好像貓和老鼠～

常鬥嘴，吵架，生氣。

吵吵，合合，又吵又合～

到最後還是連在一起，也無所不談的好朋友。

不知道我只是代替品，還是真心的對我。

有時候，沒有聼你述説，你傷心，才會找上門。

我不介意，反正我明白，我并不是誰，我沒有資格＝）

你是一個拿不定主意的人。

很善變，也很糊塗。

呵呵，有時候真的又氣又笑～＊可愛＊

你也是對一個追求者，猶豫不決～

明明是你朋友喜歡的，怎麽突然會喜歡上你？

你真的不知所措。

當時的你，很爲難，很混亂，你不知道該怎麽辦。

你問我　：

“該怎麽辦呢？我這樣做，會不會傷害她？”

“我聼某某人說，他是這樣的，他真的是嗎？”

“我真的很亂，怎麽辦呢？”

你也哭了。。

你為了他，真的哭了不少數。

我的肩膀也溼了不少，留下不少你的淚水，你的痕跡。

看到你這樣，真的不忍心。

只能對你說：“他是一個怎樣的人，你自己最清楚，你跟他相處你覺得呢？為什麽不給自己一個機會？也許他不是，如果他是，那就是教訓。”

有什麽東西是完美的呢？

沒有傷害，那裏有挫折？那裏有反省？對麽？

那裏有教訓，那裏有長大？

我知道，我在你心中，不曾重要過。

大家都是同班同學，最多是好朋友。

你啊～自己在外面生活。

不能在那麽任性了，要為自己著想，要堅強！

不好的，全部不要。

現在，要一切更新了～

可是沒關係，你還是依然有了解你的，多年陪伴著你的朋友～

＝）　安啦

謝你，其實你很不錯！

真的

～＊至：受愛情創傷，在等待著某人原諒，做回朋友的那位！

今年你考完試就要出國了。

自己在外面，真的要小心了。

照顧自己，不要依賴別人，也不要別人為你擔心。

雖然你每次說，我大了，我可以的，我。。。。

但是你知道嗎？你依然是那麽的粗心，那麽的令人擔心～

你和他之間之後發生了什麽事情，我不清楚。

可是你的心情，我還能夠理解。

過去了就算了，至少你都給了你自己一次的機會。

學會了，就不要再犯錯＝）

知道嗎？要長大哦！呵呵

以後，一定有一個是很疼你的！恩。。

我們以前開始也不怎麽樣。哈哈

很好笑～

向對你說聲＂ｄｕｉｂｕｑｉ　＂

你人隨和，爽快＝）

很好。

可是呢，就很固執，愛頂撞，尤其是對你的父母。

一次，有因爲一個誤會。

全部人離我而去。

只有你，還願意聼我說，願意陪我。

可是不久，你也去了。

一次相聚談心事，你說出來了。我明白，你也有苦衷。

你愛打扮，注意自己儀態身份。是好事，可是也不要那麽過火～

你已經美了。簡單就是美，有時候複雜了，未必是好事，懂嗎？

今年，我看見了你脆弱的一面。

你為了他，崩潰了。

你哭了，你不懂怎麽辦，你變了，你不是你自己。

當時的我，只能陪你幾天，陪不到你復合。

可是，你很好，你很勇敢！

你堅強了，你堅決了，你放棄了，你方下了！

你做到了。＝）

你很棒，是真的。

我們其實都很合拍。

～＊至：像小孩子的他！

這位，丑小鴨變天鵝。

剛開始認識他，頭髮如鳥窩。

聲音如喇叭。身材如小雞。

可是他，小小如辣椒～

＊暈＊

那時候，他跟她在一起～

呵呵，漫搞笑的～

然後，因爲一個誤會，他們分開了。

那時你，很氣“她”。氣她為什麽哪麽濺，破壞你們！

你真的很愛他，想挽回他。

我坐在你前面，跟你又同補習～

陪著你，安慰你。

之後，大家都給了大家一次機會～

他對你，不同了。

對你越來越好，你們越來越恩愛。

哈哈～不要想那麽多，愛他就好。

他愛你就好。他肯為你付出，是值得的。

你愛的是他的人，不是他的家人。

對嗎？

不用擔心，很容易解決的。

只要你肯忍讓，好好説清楚，跟他解決。問題就沒了～

＊如果你們以後結婚啦＊

有時候的你，都會對我撒嬌！

真是拿你沒辦法。

可是你可以很小孩，也可以很成熟～

雖然相處不多，可是也有份情。

你是一個很會關心很會照顧人的朋友！

只是我沒有這個福＝）

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

有時候，絕的你們全部都很陌生。

好像忘記了我。

跟你們在一起，好像很不自在。

很害怕。

害怕自己一個人，害怕被冷落，害怕面對你們。

我好像是一個不存在的人，都變了。

跟你們出去，說的話也不多。

偶爾說說笑話給你們聼，笑笑下。

然後就靜靜了。

靜靜的聼著你們多開心多開心。

靜靜的聼你們講述你們在一起的時光。

沒有我的時光。

也許你們看了決的我很煩，可是我也沒關係。

我的朋友，到我死去還是我的朋友。

我重情，所以你們對我來説都很重要。

不管受過多少的傷害，從來沒有怪過你們。

利用我也好，真心對我也好。

還是我的朋友。

我對你們來説，重不重要都無所謂，在意的，只是那份心。

偶爾有人提起我，你們才會想起我。

想起我，記起我，還知道我是誰，那就夠了。

朋友對我說的每一句話，對我做的每件事，我都記得。

在我腦裏，根本抹不了。

讓你們想起我，已經，很好了。

～＊朋友，有機會，我們還會像以前嗎？

朋友，你們還記得我嗎？

我出現在你們面前，就好像

一個沒有靈魂的軀身。

沒有會察覺。

朋友，你們最近好嗎？

朋友，加油哦！

再見了，朋友。

－善媚，你們曾經的朋友，同班同學，哄你們笑的那位－

Lamo ~

2009-10-16T18:27:00.000+08:00

~*Hmmm, recently in class quite boring.
Test come continuously, non-stop..
after test 1, continued by test 2.
going to mad.
but thanks God, it's over now..
1 week to go, semester exam coming.

IT'S IN THE CORNER !! *scream*

~*We brought this.
and i started to love this.

The m&m !! yummy ~ this is milk chocolate. ♥

~*Then i take Nasi Lemak as my breakfast normally ~

so .. this came out from Ning's mind ==

she got nothing to do..

Pandan leaf
Nut

Sperm?? !! ♥ ♥

-sm-

15.10.2009 .. A date with Dear <3

2009-10-16T18:10:00.002+08:00

~*老公阿老公~

考完试了。。陪你一起出去！

呵呵！

~*你啊你。。。。

就是那么爱吃日本餐！

== 只是纯粹要吃到Wasabi的味！

坏蛋~

California, Unagi, Salmon Mango ♥

Hahas ~~ Yummy ♥♥

~*然后，我们去看戏！

Pandorum, RM 11. SUNWAY PYRAMID, TGV cinema

我们的第一次！第一场戏～～么么♥

好幸福啊～～！！呵呵。。戏院冷冷你说热热～＊汗＊

~*唉呀～

你不喜欢进店～

偶尔陪我逛逛嘛！

不然很闷的哦～～～

习惯可以改的嘛！

不然每次都要我自己一个人走？

情趣阿！笨蛋～！！♥

－我－

Deva Night 9.10.2009

2009-10-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

~*Owh, yesterday was awesome !
Godness, Deva Night man..
it's means Depavali Night..
I heard about it last week i think?
and i was BISING-ing to go to go !!

~*Then, yesterday after class, Eva and Rukhy not going to math class..
they going to prepare for the Deva Night, and burn some song..
i have 3 hours break that time, so invited them to come my house..
besides, i have empty CD & DVD too~

~*I was wondering should i go?
argh, headache...
if i go there, will i be the only white chick there?
OMG !! and what to wear?
haha.. =)
too much to wonder

~*At last ! GGGGGOOOOOo
k, that is.
i went to Eva house, decided to sleep..
but failed, we was siao-ing with don't know what..
and i lied on bed with Eva, and started our conversation....

~*Then Eva find some Benjabi Suit for me..

Her mom, 1 sari & 1 benjabi suit - failed
The aka that stayed with her - can, but i dont like it =x
Few Benjabi Suit from Eva's cupboard - 2 failed 1 passed

the passed one, OMG, the hand is slightly tight.. can't take it
what out on mind?
Eva remove the sleve !!! GOD
and she said she can become TAYLOR now =.=

~*It's 4.30pm,
we chased Rukhy for bath..
because she will be the first to make her hair...
THICK hair ~ but nice :D

~*So, Eva made Rukhy hair and mine hair..
after she made my hair, she was,
OMG, so cute... shan mei, so nice... ==
thanks anyway :D
den she put some make up for me =p
like it !

~*I was exited that time..
wondering anything .. argh ..
but since they say i look nice, ok la =D

SM in Benjabi SUIT !!

Eva, Rukhy, Shan Mei

Awesome... :D

~*Let's go !!!

waiting for Eva's mum..

argh, need wait for at least 45 minutes..

we called up Vicky !

ya, Vicky going to come...

wait and wait n wait...

called him up for the another time..

he just ready?? OMG !!

~*We have to walk to Sunway Pyramid and wait for him..

there he come, so we walk...

OMG ! my leg was hurt man.. the stupid hills ==

and the Benjabi Suit was so hot, i was sweating !!! Gila siao

3 of us walking along the road, like ROAD SHOW man ! model ==

more that, i am a Chinese in Indian suit?!

~*argh, reached..

reached school, the person i met first is Priya..

she talked to Eva and Rukhy but not me !

Grrr, u can see me vry obvious..

den she was like OMG! it's you, i tot which CHIN-DIA..

CHIN-DIA ~ Chinese + India

i really look like?

~*Omg the shows were abit boring...

because i don't really understand what they saying and singing?

LOL !!!

talk so fast just like a chicken backside (_*_)

somehow, i felt sleepy !

when only can go back la..........

waiting for presentation from Sunway students, Rukhy's friends..

they were the last !!

Dongx >.<

~*Wow, their dance was so chunx weyh..

andt they are hot !!

finished, go home...

-meis wohooo~~

期待，渴望，等待

2009-10-04T15:58:00.010+08:00

~*对老公的心声

~*期待，渴望，等待

是你不在的时候，我每天的心态。

每天每天，我都会想着你。想着我们的回忆，你在我身边的时候，发生过的事情，我们一起做过的事。

~*以前的我，总是那么的任性！

一直气你，反正你也不回骂我 =p

有时我也会觉得自己很过分也很后悔，可是就是开不了口对你说声对不起！

我不善于道歉，当面的话。

你，一忍再忍。我觉得很奇怪，难道你没有脾气吗？

你以前的工作，一定会有很霸道很暴躁的性格！可是怎么相反了呢？

难道，你真的那么爱我吗？难道我改变你？

我傻傻的自以为是~呵呵！:D

~*我们对彼此都付出了不少。

我们在一起不久后，我开始慢慢接受你了。

以前一开始，我总是有一种很抗拒你的感觉！

我也不知道怎么了。

好好笑，你还问我能牵着我的手入睡吗？

为难了你一下下~还是让你牵了。

心跳~紧张~

~*你不在，我都很期待下次你的到来。

你要工作~不能常常陪我。

可是有时候我需要你，还是会为难了你一下。

撒娇嘛！

~*时间久了，大家都好像变了。

我不知道我自己，可是我就觉得你变了。

不同了，你开始有脾气了，开始不那么温柔了。

是我噩梦的开始吗？

你的耐性也变得不是很好了。

之后，你跟我在一起的时候又不同的态度。

不在的时候也又不同的态度。

哎！有时真的很伤心。

~*你心脏不好，太累太气会呼吸困难。

曾经一次你为了我这样。

就在我身边，我哭了。我说对不起。

所以，我从不跟你吵。不想让你辛苦。

你现在的工作，真的很累人，睡眠又不冲足！

自己也变得暴躁了些~

你的性格，就是不会想得长远点~

自找麻烦，不会放松自己！

所以每次一点小小的问题，你自己都会把它化大来看！

告诉你，你有不明白。要把你弄明，还是要说了好几遍好几遍！

有时候真的很生气~

~*男女朋友之间的事，

你又不大明白~

初恋的你？还是给你机会学习~

可是，你懂吗？

关心，体贴是一定要的阿！

不是说，每天都做同样的事，会闷！

是什么道理啊~

关心也有很多种方法阿~

不是单单的问：“今天好吗？过得怎样？”

除了语言上的关心，也能是行动上的关心阿~

你懂吗？每次我生气，其实我根本生气不下~

我生气，有时你又不懂~有时你又装着若无其事！

真的很讨厌~！

~*哄我其实并不难~

你说几句，我就没什么了~

可是，你总是不坚持！

到一半不是自己发脾气就是当作没有事情发生~

可恶~！

不是想要生气，只是想让你哄，关心而已~真的。。。

可是到最后，还是得到“痛”

每天都在忙碌的你，只有晚上睡觉前才能通电话。

而且就是那么一下子你就说要睡觉了。

我放学回家了~就是自己一个人了~

只是要你一点点的关心，体贴而已阿~

可是你总是不明白。

还能说我要求多~

有谁不喜欢被关心阿？有谁不喜欢被哄啊？

只有你那么奇怪！哼！

~*我的要求根本就不过分阿~也不会多

你知道你自己的病，为什么不为自己着想呢？

控制一下自己的脾气，学会怎样去面对，学会冷静，学会轻松。

也要学会人与人之间的关心~

这样不会觉得好过点吗？

你自己也开心，别人也开心。

可是我说的，你总是不听！！！

我经历过的东西也不比你少。

从小，我都不是父母手中长大的~

都是别人顾的。

什么印度人，，马来人，华人，通通都有。

很小，我就学会了独立。

而且，我也很少会诉苦。因为我不会~

我不会怎样去表达自己的心情~

我认为我自己能够解决~

伤心就大不了哭一哭，什么就忘了~

每天嘻嘻哈哈的我，烦恼也不少~！

只是，假装没事，开心的玩，我会比较好过。

至少我可以忘记，暂时不用去想~

长大了，我才明白，烦恼可以说出来。

才知道，身边的人，朋友都是可以诉苦的~

可是我不会跟爸爸妈妈说。

因为他们不明白我~ 到最后，都会是吵架收场~

我不喜欢。

你说，我有什么都可以告诉你，我想什么都可以告诉你~

跟你分享。

可是呢？我说了出来，你会骂我，说我想多，根本没有这回事~

我是女子~想多当然是会的阿~想象也是我最喜欢的~

难道你就不能说点安慰的话吗？T.T

~*你小的时候，父母离婚~

你也不好受~也变成坏孩子~

长大了，你会想了。也会慢慢去学习了。

可是你想的东西，还是那么单纯~

你说：“为什么要想那么多？想得简单点不好吗？”

想简单是好~可是，那只是会一直骗自己而已。

等到有事情发生了~你就不懂要怎样面对了~！

有时，做东西，还是要提别人着想~也要想后果~

你不是活在自己的世界~是跟别人，很多人一起生活啊！

做人不能那么自私~

你也不小了，想东西不能总是那么单纯，那么简单~

你会遇到更多事情~要为自己的未来好好想

你说：“你就是我的未来”

就当作我是你的未来，那我们的未来呢？

你想过吗？

好好打算，要有目标，计划~

懂吗？

~*我失望，会不开心。

我生气，是因为你总是答应这个那个。

没有一次是做到的~！

全部都是空的承诺~

我不知道你是要敷衍我，还是什么。

男人是也，你能当个男子汉吗？

君子一言，驷马难追~

听过吗？

~*那时我问你，我们没有见没多久了？

2 个星期你说~

可是，我觉得是两个月。真的好像好久没有见到你了~

你说几时几时会来。

我问你确定吗？你说恩

我等~我期待。可是呢？你又告诉我不能~

下个星期，下个星期又不能~

一个月又3个星期，我们没有见了。

查不多2个月了~！

~*听到你说你要来，我真的很开心~

都在想，你来得时候陪你做些什么~

以前你来，我都是在读书~

我们就每次呆在家~

这两个月，有几天都是我得空的！

可是你又不能来~~

我考试，想专心，不想你来~

哎~

有时候我真的很辛苦~！

你下来，就是你轻松的时候~

就想让你真正的轻松~ 虽然你说能在我身边就够了~

可是，我也想让我们留下点甜美的回忆~

不是只是在这个四四方方的房间~

~*一次又一次的失望~

你都不会安慰我。

也不会哄我。

就任由我自己一个人~

我，就自己想办法哄自己开心，安慰自己~

有时我在想，你到底有没有想过我？有为我着想么？在乎我么？

连我自己都回答不了。

答案留给你自己，问问你的心，回答吧~

~*情侣生活，不是一个人的事。

不时单身的过着情侣生过~

那个不叫两个人的世界，两个人的生活。

有了男女朋友，你的世界多了一个人。

要多为一个人着想，关心，照顾。

挂羊头，买狗肉。

我们就好像：挂情侣牌，单身生活

~*我的期待是让你来

渴望是让你该变

等待是：我的期待，渴望都到了！

-老婆上-

A Shocked

2009-10-04T12:33:00.000+08:00

~*After the celebration, went home.
need to prepare for the test tomorrow, PHYSIC
the subject that i never ever pay attention in class =)
sorry Miss Lisa. :D
you will forgive me rite

~*Hmm, can i start my stody =x
Celebration of 18th Birthday.
Honestly, if you ask me did i celebrate it.. NO, i didnt

~*18 years old.. Teenage stage. A mature stage.
all friends separate. go for own dreamzz
thinking that do they remember me? will they celebrate with me?
that night i was with my dear ~ =p
but still hope that gang of us celebrate together.
in fact, wishes sent. :D

~*Always go out for birthday celebration..
i will think of my birthday..
felt so sad, regret and 遗憾...
and my birthday present T.T
but, wad's shan mei.. is nobody =x

~*That night, after sent me home..
when i was about to open the car door and make my step,
they gave a present and wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAN MEI.
i was , Huh? wth? my present.. oh, a sudden touched.

~*I said thanks.. den i went in
i opened the box, it is a sleeping dress.. pink in colour =)

my favorite color ! thanks guy... muacks <3

~*Snapped few photo for u all~

Ka Chun asked me to wear ==

shit, impossible wear in front u all la.. *shy shy* :D

too fat~ wait i thin la ! scare u all nose bleed.. =p

Nice booo..........*shy shy*

~*Hmm, finish snapped..

prepare for study.

i took the plastic and wanna clean everything up from my table..

when i took the plastic, i felt the weight..

i looked inside, omg. !

I found this man ! *.*

~*Super weih ! T-back.

Quite nice but i think i don't have the chance to wear it.. =)

LOL ! i terus naik gila..

but obviously i won't take photo with the >> xD

~*They prepared this present weeks ago.

and that time we went back Quantan and decided to go for a swim at Hayatt.

if i go, i dont have shirt or pant to change oso.

and sudd they said that, panties got ! DONT WORRY !

i was like, Huh?? how come?

they said that i left the panties at their house. OMG !!!!

i was about to believe it ! but too bad, not 100% :D

~*They wanted to buy me another present also..

a pink Dinner Dress..

but. thanks you guys la, if i wear it.

i think TSUNAMI will really come for it =p

***ps

wont mind also if you all didint celebrate with me, didint present me anything.

maybe that time you all wanted to ajak me out but i can't??

don't know.. but still thanks you guys =)

-shan m3i-

Xin Ling's Birthday.. 28.9.2009

2009-10-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

~*Opsss...
sorry for the last post =)
i was so last week.. preparing for test.. GOD

Happy 18th Birthday Our Hai Ling =x

You know the worker was so dumb and she wrote wrong the Birthday to Birhiday . GOD !

She make a wish

After made her wishes, cut cake..

And she made a PEACE to me =D

~*Ok, she's pretty rite.. my friend.. dont try to tackle her k :D

ok that night .. we celebrate at FISH MARKET ...

after ordering, she got a call from her sister.

her face emotion changed in sudden, WHY??

Oh god, her grandmother passed away.. In the morning i think?

May Grandmother rest in peace =)

~*Her sister told her accidentally..

she don't know that her dad dont wanna let her know it..

i think her dad tried to tell her, but she was busying make up =(

so, just asked her to enjoy herself ..

~*She cried. I can guess it.

XL and grandmother are not so close to each other because grandmother stay in Penang.

the LAST TIME she went back to Penang was 2 weeks ago rite??

and grandmother still can walk, she dont hv any sick.

grandmother is so healthy ! :D

and she died in peace... =) proud of u grandma !

~*XL wanted to apply for lift, she wants attend for the funeral =)

then, she never think it much i think?

we enjoy taking photo... LOL !!

hehes..

~*What a wonderfull day ~

-sm-

The Night...

2009-09-10T01:42:00.000+08:00

~*Yesterday night...
i got nothing to do ~
suddenly felt like walking around the housing area..

~*Wondering what Jerome doing..
maybe can ask him to accompany me?
haha..
then, i went and knocked his door~
he was watching movie while lying on bed..

~*So i was..
err, should i ask him?
den he asked me anything?
so i said.. ya, i want to have a walk.. just around..

~*Jerome is a person that love walking alots ==
so~ we changed up and went out...
we stopped at a playground...

~*We sat on the swing...
wow, 1st time .. walking in the night and swing in the playground ~
felt awesome ! love it much =)

~*Maybe i'm superstitious ..
now is Chinese July --> hungry ghost festival ..
euw ~ i keep feel uncomfort =(

~*But dont care lar..
just relax since i'm out ^^
den we play the jongkang-jongkek =.=

and we play the swinging horse too !!!

so fun ~~ hard to balance it.. woOoo

~*About 11.45pm
we went home~
the way we went home..
stupid Jerome teased me..
with his stupid ghost joke !

~*WTH, if can i really want to kick him far far away..
he keep saying that the cat we saw just now was following us !
hell man...
and he keep on with his acting until we reached home.. - -
god, kill me..

~*Am i regret because i have a walk
or
i have a walk with wrong person

-shan mei-

混乱的心情

2009-09-09T21:53:00.001+08:00

~*今天，
乌鸦放学见到孔雀。。
和孔雀说了几句话，孔雀便匆忙的离开了~
乌鸦与朋友安定了位子，然后看见另一只孔雀。。

~*乌鸦尝试叫孔雀，
可是孔雀听不见。
乌鸦就亟需做它的东西，
直到孔雀发现了乌鸦~
来和乌鸦聊了几句~

~*两只孔雀约了乌鸦出去~
乌鸦没有给答案。

~*乌鸦上完最后一堂课，
得知明天没有测验，
发了讯息给孔雀~
“明天没有测验，如果还有位子我能去的”
孔雀说：“能~”

~*过后，
乌鸦跟朋友聊了电话~
累累，就睡去了。

~*乌鸦忘了把电话铃声打开,
孔雀打电话。
才发现，原来孔雀们6点就要出发了。
乌鸦迟到了~6.10 Pm

~*乌鸦发了讯息，
决定不出了。
孔雀拨了电话过来~
“真的不去吗？我们大家都有去！”
“嗯，不了。没关系。”

~*乌鸦在忧郁，
应该去吗？？
算了，说了就不咬忧郁了。
乌鸦拨了电话给琦雀，说乌鸦不能陪她去了~

~*然后乌鸦躺在床上。
乌鸦想着，跟孔雀们出去。。
到最后也不是自己一个人？
那为何要去呢？
让自己不舒服。
算了吧~
乌鸦还是在窝比较好！！

-乌鸦-

透明人 ==

2009-09-07T17:43:00.002+08:00

~*在朋友海茫茫中~
徘徊着的我，都是一个透明人。。。

~*群里，
大家是孔雀，我是乌鸦~

孔雀与乌鸦~你会选择哪一个啊？？
我也不喜欢乌鸦阿~
可是，我就是。。。。

~*乌鸦站在孔雀旁，乌鸦扮演的只是一块石头~
孔雀站在石头上，展开五颜六色的翅膀~
谁又会理会到石头呢？
下面的石头承受着压力，看着观众们赞美这上面的孔雀~

~*某天，孔雀被带到马戏团~
孔雀站着的是一个高高的台~
孔雀不再需要石头了。。。。。
石头永远留在那地面上。。。
等待着另一只孔雀站在上面展开翅膀~

#虽然灵魂有在，可是躯体并不在#
#although my soul is there, but my body doesn't appear#

心在人不在。。
为何呢？
因为，人是透明的。。=）
透明体是不会有人发觉的，也没有人理会。。。。。

-无影无踪-

~姐妹们~

2009-09-06T22:11:00.006+08:00

~*嘉文阿
有了她的幸福哦！
哈哈。。
他们俩还蛮可爱的~
都回互相疼~
嘉文也长大了！坏脾气也少了。。。
她学会对男朋友说对不起了。。也会低下头了！
哈哈！
应该说那男的有本事~

当初说不能，现在也不时好好的吗？
尝试了才会知道对方会不会使我们的钥匙！
*心的钥匙*
你们两个真得要好好珍惜对方哦！不要在耍脾气闹脾气
偶尔无所谓，不要伤感情就好了！
=）

两个人在一起，就要互相礼让互相体谅嘛！
呵呵呵呵~~
他会是一个不错的伴哦！
恩~
说分手容易，可是要说爱你不容易哦

***********************************
~*佩琦
呵呵！她也有阿~
佩琦和嘉文都是同一天跟他们在一起的吧？
还是割一天。忘了 =x

这个男的就有点怪气的~
心情时好时坏~
搞不懂。。。
可是他应该也很疼佩琦吧！

他们都喜欢斗嘴~
唉呀呀，真搞不懂~
虽然他们的话不是每个人都可以接受，但他们就是爱斗！
入心入骨的斗！xD
好恶心~

斗斗也好，可是逗逗比较好！
要清楚自己是在玩不是真正的吵架！
伤感情。。。

佩琦，不是每一个男人都回一样~
每个人都有他们的特点，他们的方式。。
问题是在我们能不能接受？愿不愿意去接受？
人与人之间真的不能做比较~因为大家都是不同的动物~
他是他，他又是他。。你应该明白我说什么吧？

对，你从前的他真的很好。。
对你来说，他真的很完美~
因为你爱他，你疼她，你想他。。
他曾经在你的心住了一段日子~
可惜，他现在已经搬走了！
要记得，他搬迁了，别人来住了。。。。

而那个别人，不是他的代替也不是他的躯身~
他是现在愿意为你付出的，陪伴你的，照顾你的心的~
往往人都回想。。
“为什么？为什么我不能遇回好像他那样的人？”
“为什么?为什么她那么不一样？”
“他，适合我吗？他都不像他。”

遇见不同的他，是给我们品尝不同的滋味~
付出多少，不代表能收回多少。
要学会祝福，原谅，感激。。

祝福他幸福
原谅他的离开
感激他让你成长也让你遇见别的

新的他有什么不满，就好好说出来谈。。
有时候，他们是不知道我们在想什么的~
也不要他们变，变我们喜欢的，变你想念得以前那个。。
因为那个不是真正的他~

************************************
~*馨仪
唉呀呀~她跟他都很久了。。
快3年了吧？
哈哈！

你们啊~真是一对又淘气又生气的情侣~
旁人看了都又笑又哭~

他突然大变~真得改变了很多。。
虽然我不懂为什么，你也忘了告诉我！
哈哈。。
可是他真的很疼你，很照顾你，很在乎你，重要的-他很爱你
人要求的是什么？找到一个他是可以依靠的就好啊~

对，每个人都有自己的要求。。
可是，如果找不到，就不要了么？？
事情是会改变的。。
在我们控制手中的事情，都是预料到的。。
根本没什么惊喜，也享受不了什么
因为我们都知道 =)

我们对别人做出要求的当时，别人也同时对我们做出要求~
你找到你想要的他，可是你是那个他想要的吗？
哈哈。。
有缘的爱情是分不开的，没缘的爱情强逼在一起也没有用~
=)

*********************************
~*俐恩
兜兜转转，你们到最后还是变成情侣~
同学-朋友-好朋友-情侣
你现在的他，是你以前到现在好朋友的就男友~
哈哈~!

刚开始的时候，很压力吧你。。
可是阿，这些东西没有得好怕的~
她不会恨你，因为她会明白~
=）

既然喜欢就光明正大的在一起~
逃避也没有用。。
你以前的他。。
对你又疼又爱的，可惜那个他不懂得尊重~
你们结束了这段缘份~

过后，遇见了现在的他~
想想下，现在才能在一起，是不是要给你体验些什么呢？
是不是要给你先苦后甜呢？

不要拿从前他的性格跟现在他的性格作比较。。
人是会变得~
他就是经历了教训，经历了爱情，他明白了，所以变了。。。
那未免也不是一件好事~

距离远的你们~都学会了体谅。。
他会控制自己的心来更想你。。。。。
你会想办法去接开他的想念~
=）
飞去找他，有想过吗？
是不是觉得自己长大了，也伟大了。。
呵呵~

现在有的，就要享受。。
想未来的事是多余的~
所想的，一定会发生吗？
都是我们的幻想~

如果要想拿么多，为什么当初要在一起？
为什么还要那么辛苦？
为什么。。。。。。
就是因为爱阿~!恩

***********************************
~*芯菱
你放下了吗？
你放开了吗？
你还伤心吗？
你还挂念吗?

你自己有答案吧~
虽然不是很清楚你们到底发生什么事~
可是还是希望你好起来！
一天你还在意他，你还是不能忘记的~

他既然做了那么的决定，就代表他要结束你们之间。。
他会想要逃避，他会想要忘记。。。
他在为自己找借口~
逃避你们的回忆，曾经，甜酸苦辣~
是他没种！是他不会。。。。

你不想你们之间在有什么关联。。
好让误会不再发生。。。。
可是你懂吗，有些事情。。。
不需要证据，也能有传闻~
如果不相信你的他~根本不用凭证据也会误会你。。
因为在他心目中，你就是这样了~
他不想再想你了。。。
虽然在他心目中你不是这样的~

你不需要把自己做得那么辛苦。。
如果是想念他就想念吧。。。。
可是要清楚，是朋友的想念，回忆的想念~
如果他帮你当傻海，你就不要再做傻海了。。。
要也做一个爱你的人心目中的傻海~ =）

不要刻意隐藏自己的心~
大家都是明白你的~支持你的~
最多是叫你不要想了！
=）

你说，要感谢他做了那个决定。。
不然现在的你还在哭~
对，既然你要感谢他。。。
为什么还要想那么多？？
感谢他就要报答他。。
他不想再联络你了，不想见你。。。
你就不要理他啊~潇洒的离开，彻底地放下~
对，是需要时间。。。

现在的你，如果要看关于他的东西。。
也要透过别人，也要偷偷摸摸。。。
那不是小人一个？？
你一定会说
“我不想跟他有什么关联，不想他误会什么，不想他。。。不想”
你每天都不想这个那个的，你不辛苦吗？
要背着自己的心来做事~
反正你们都不会再联络了，还在乎什么?
你的在乎你的心，他懂吗？
他只是懂：你是陌生人！

解释，如果早能解释，早能对他说你想说的话。。
你们现在就不是这个样子。。。。
既然机会都没了，为什么还挣扎着？？
好，要为自己争取一次机会。。。
那就说清楚那最后一次！
然后就结束一切！！不要再做不要再想了~
你还有更好的未来，更好的以后，更好的他~
=）
你不是伟人

*让你听听歌

-=他和她的故事=-

他说他很爱她
他说会守护她
他送她玫瑰花
一切美得不像话
从朋友变成情人
她不再只有自己
他爱他爱得彻底
真心溢满了甜蜜
时间看清一个人
开始令人昏沉沉
他像变了一个人太蛮横
她开始悬着疑问
不想再等他承认
不再要任何伤痕
(谁爱谁) 谁又流干了眼泪
(谁后悔) 难分难舍太伤悲
(他爱谁) 谁应该止住眼泪
(她心碎) 谁又该干脆离开
(谁爱谁) 谁又能反反覆覆
(谁后悔) 谁在忍受着孤独
(谁了解) 他退出她孤独
爱得太盲目
他说他很爱她
他说会守护她
他送她玫瑰花
一切美得不像话
从朋友变成情人
她不再只有自己
他爱他爱得彻底
真心溢满了甜蜜
时间看清一个人
开始令人昏沉沉
他像变了一个人太蛮横
她开始悬着疑问
不想再等他承认
不再要任何伤痕
(谁爱谁) 谁又流干了眼泪
(谁后悔) 难分难舍太伤悲
(他爱谁) 谁应该止住眼泪
(她心碎) 谁又该干脆离开
(谁爱谁) 谁又能反反覆覆
(谁后悔) 谁在忍受着孤独
(谁了解) 他退出她孤独
爱得太盲目
(谁爱谁) 谁又流干了眼泪
(谁后悔) 难分难舍太伤悲
(他爱谁) 谁应该止住眼泪
(她心碎) 谁又该干脆离开
(谁爱谁) 谁又能反反覆覆
(谁后悔) 谁在忍受着孤独
(谁了解) 谁退出谁孤独
谁不满足
(谁爱谁) 谁又流干了眼泪
(谁后悔) 难分难舍太伤悲
(他爱谁) 谁应该止住眼泪
(她心碎) 谁又该干脆离开
(谁爱谁) 谁又能反反覆覆
(谁后悔) 谁在忍受着孤独
(谁了解) 他退出她孤独
爱得太盲目

-=广岛之恋=-

你早就该拒绝我
不该放任我的追求
给我渴望的故事
留下丢不掉的名字
时间难倒回空间易破碎
二十四小时的爱情
是我一生难忘的美丽回忆

越过道德的边境
我们走过爱的禁区
享受幸福的错觉
误解了快乐的意义
是谁太勇敢说喜欢离别
只要今天不要明天眼睁睁看著
爱从指缝中溜走还说再见
--
不够时间好好来爱你
早该停止风流的游戏
愿被你抛弃就算了解而分离
不愿爱的没有答案结局
不够时间好好来恨你
终於明白恨人不容易
爱恨消失前用手温暖我的脸
为我证明我曾真心爱过你
爱过你爱过你爱过你

*********************************
~*婉蔚
呵。。。。你啊~
2 个字能形容你~
矛盾，意志力弱。。。。
自己真正要什么都不知道~
总是等待别人来替你决定~
决定了又犹豫不决！
矛盾么？
=）

恋爱的第一次，不一定要美好~
那只是我们幻想中的~我们要的~
可是在我们人生中有几何是我们真的能得到我们想要的呢？？
好好想想~ =）
就算我们的到了，会满意吗？
的到了就会要求更多呢！
对么？

每个人的第一次都体验不同的东西~
你体验的是一个教训，一个谜语~
他那颗喜欢你的心，让你不知所措~
同时，你的好朋友也喜欢上他呢！
你觉得“怎么办呢？”
哈哈。。
也有好多好多人说他的不是~
你也停顿了下来，他，真的是这样吗？

最后，你选择了不理会~
你挑选了他这把钥匙！
可是呢，你还是在挣扎~
不想把她插进你的心~
犹豫着那是否真的能够打开你的心~

过后~你一只带着不安全的心跟他一起走了一段路~
哎~
甜酸苦辣都有！
不要觉得自己笨~
在恋爱的人，全部都是笨蛋阿~
因为我们都回作出无理取闹的事~
呵呵。。。

虽然到最后，你们不是完美的结束。。
你们之间还是有谜语~
太多的骗局，太多的猜疑。。。
走上了这条路，你也伤心起来。。。。
后来，你觉得为什么当初你会做这个决定！
真是笨，我的第一次为什么是这样的？！

不。。。
你不笨。。。。
你的第一次也不是不美好~
想想，你在还没有分开之前~
还没猜开一切骗局~
你是不是也傻傻的享受他给你的爱呢？
甜甜的~

如果每一次都是那么的甜，
你会感受到什么是痛吗？
你会长大吗？
你会学的懂事吗？
不会，你还是会傻里傻气~

不错的你，不怕没人要~
谁没有遇上挫折？
我何尝不是遇上很多？？
你有很多人在身边支持你~
怕什么！呵呵。。。

过去的就让它过去吧~
那只是回忆了~
你还有现在~
谁知道你遇到的下一个他陪伴你终身呢？

做人还是做回自己好~
不许要伪装~
喜欢就喜欢，不喜欢就罢！
是就是，不是就不是~
老是跟着别人，只会还了你。。
因为你是你。。。。。

决定的是别人，可是体验的事你。。
为什么要做让自己后悔的事？
=）
长大吧！

*呵呵~
不知道俊杰又没有机会~
此刻的你很想打我吧?
打阿~对着荧幕大骂！！
哈哈~

-祝福着的朋友-

咱们的回忆

2009-09-06T20:55:00.003+08:00

星期五，朋友们下来了~
前几天，我还很兴奋的想要去参他们。。。
难得可以全部聚一聚。。
可惜，让我心情不好的事情发生了。。

当天，他们上门找我。。。。
看见他们拿么高兴，我也不要扫兴。。
就决定跟他们一起去朋友家睡觉！
反正我也不想想太多，轻松下也好！

那天晚上，我们都聊着~好开心。。。
我们还喝酒呢！哈哈。。。。
好久没有碰酒的我们。。。都很快醉去了！
阿~然后肚子饿饿。。去了麻麻当吃！！

夜深了~大家就睡去了。。。
我自己一个人睡~好孤单
呜呜呜呜~干吗没人跟我睡啊！！
哈哈，没关系拉。。

=========================

星期六，大家都很早起身！
吃早餐~打算去吃猪肉粉！
啊啊啊啊~好久没吃好吃的。。。。
洗刷玩了，就出门了！

早餐吃完了。。
回家咯~
然后呢，就要去看戏！！
托着托着，就打算晚上去看~
下午我们就去吃冰~哈哈！
真得好开心哦，大家聚在一起。。
吃吃吃！
肥肥，唉呀，不管啦！

晚上了~就去看戏咯！
原本要看 final destination, 可是没了。。
就看imagine that
哈哈，不错的一个戏巴！
可是，并不是很明白它要表达什么？

会家咯~~
要去打桌球！哈哈。。。
我也好久没打了。。
=）
也买了酒，会家喝~

半夜3点多了。。
大家都睡觉了。。
我和两个朋友还没有睡觉~
便聊起来了。。。

原本4个人睡地上铺好床的~
3 个女1个男。。
死俊杰！去睡地上。。
没办法，怕他冷。。
就叫他睡在床咯。。~
劝了好几遍才跟听话睡床~哼！气死人

ww突然发出的声音吵醒了他。。是吓醒了！
哈哈。。。他又睡回地上去
然后我就让ww跟yvonne聊天咯~反正我也要睡觉了！
便去叫俊杰上来谁~那知道！突然间他发拿么大的脾气。。
吓死我！
干吗阿。。都是怕他冷才叫他阿~鸟！

=============================
星期日，起来吃了早餐。。
正天都是在房间~
然后7点多我们出去吃了晚餐就回家了~
嘻嘻！！

这几天我们聚在一起真得很开心真得很好玩！
哈哈。。
大家有说有笑，高谈阔论~
你赛我我赛你！

-善媚-

the morning of 15.8.2009

2009-08-18T14:55:00.004+08:00

Woops..
7.58 am !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOSH!!! how come alarm didint ..... ==
shit man !

Quickly woke and went into Jerome's room wake him up... ==
den i bath...
9.30am my bus !
need half hour to KL Sentral... 20minutes to Titiwangsa "(bus station)

Haven pack stuff !!! really kanasai this time..
quickly throw everything inside beg then run for taxi..
OMG ! when i ran to Metropolitan... ==
there's no any taxi there... suddenly saw a taxi..
i stopped him..
"bang, pergi KL Sentral berapa?"
"RM30"
"== oh.. tak pe la, pergi Subang KTM saja la"
"Rm10"
"rm7 boleh ah bang?"
"RM8 la"
"k la"

Got in the car.. traffic jam !!!!!
ARGH !!!!!
reached, i ran to the ktm and brought ticket...
i left not much money...
because as what we had plan, before Jerome fetch me to KTM, i go withdraw first
who knows, it's late...

Then i tot the stupid train gonna come in few minutes again...
but~ i just reached den the train came..
went inside the train but the stupid train still stop at the station !!
i started to curse... &(#@^(#^@*#
i am in rush man !

Reached KL Sentral..
nice, i faster ran to monorial station..
argh !!! it's 9.00am....
half more hour, can i do it?
i think so..

Keep peeping at my watch...
the time keep going.. SHIT MAN !!!
9.20am... 4 more stations to go..

Finally !!! reached Titiwangsa..
9.35am
i faster ran down the stairs and go to the bus...
BULAN RESTU !!! i saw it...
but how come another BULAN RESTU bus moving.. T.T
GOSH MAN !!!!!!
i see the bus dissappear infront of me...
what a day..

Then i went to the counter and ask..
cannot ask the bus to reverse !!!
argh...
another trip, 11am..
i got no money now..
left 2 bucks ++

Decided to go BUKIT BINTANG withdraw..
brought ticket of monorial to BUKIT BINTANG..
left 20sen...
dey, i more even worse than sakai !
20sen !
i phone my sister n told her everything...
argh...

Den i withdraw already, and went back to Titiwangsa...
brought another ticket... 11am..
half more hour..
i wait there !!!!
dare not move...

"i dont want to miss a thing~~i dont want to close my eyes because i miss u babe..."
i dont want to miss the bus again !!!!! &#@^*(^#!^_
drag into the bus...
fine....

What an amazing journey !!!!!!!
tired like shit...
stupid beg heavy like hell
came back ~ den my muscle super pain !!!

-shanmei-

15.8.2009

2009-08-17T23:04:00.004+08:00

After semester test.. den semester break !!!!!!
wohhhoOoo~! waiting for so long...
and.. it's not going that well for the journey go back to kuantan..

Jerome still have Statistic test today..
but i didnt take math, so i'm free ~~

So the day before 14.8.2009
we went out for dinner....
den decided to fetch me to ktm station..
wake him up at 7am..

BUT ! but...
something happened in the midnight...
i cant sleep !!!!!!!!!!!!!
really OMG ...
i watching movie while lying on bed...
probably i will fall asleep if like this..
but that day thing happened opposite

It was 12.30am...
then rolling on bed..
1.30am...
shit man i still cannot get into sleep..
i set alarm at 5am..
because i haven pack up my stuff..

2.30am !!
still awake !!!
i started to phone somebody...
firstly sure phone dear dear ~
he slept like a pig...
picked up my phone but keep quiet..
and said that he vry tired working whole day...
ok lur, sleep ... pek cek ady

2nd, msg Kenny...
aiks, he work in cc and the got no line...
so i phone ah lan ask him to tell him..
so he phone me..
but he working also !!!! busy ~~
and his boss was there..
so fine....

3rd person... Ji Fan !!! a Leo...
=)
wiwit...
he haven sleep~
so he phone me...
i made a request...
the request was ! tell me a story...
hahaha...
he wonder for so long... ==
den he started the story...

~*STORY LINE*~

从前，有一对很恩爱的男女。。。
他们在一起很久了。。
一起生活。。。
他们已经要谈到结婚了。。

一天，女子问男子∶“为什么你爱我？”
男子说：“爱是不需要理由的。”
女子有点生气，说到：“你爱我什么你都不知道！那你还说爱我？！”
男子就说：“我爱你的笑容。”
女子就说：“那么简单？？？我觉得我们应改要了解一下，冷静一下。”

然后在某天，女子正要上班。。。
途中，发生了车祸。。。
男子得知后，马上赶到医院去。。
女子昏迷不醒。。。要一天的时间。。
男子就坐在女子的身边守护着他。。
男子说：“现在我不是看不到你的笑容了么？难道我就不爱你么？”
男子留着眼泪。。。

女子醒了之后，男子离开了。。
随着时间的流逝，女子找到了他的新欢。。。
就在下个月的某时某日他们就要结婚了。。

然后某天，女子收到男子的讯息。。。
男子说：“爱一个人真的不需要理由。。我爱你就爱你的一切。。不止是爱你的笑容。。可是你不明白。。。我现在不在你的身边，看不到你的笑容，难道我就不爱你了吗？不。。错了。。。就算没有你的笑容我还是很爱你的！明日，你就要结婚了，祝你幸福，可是不要再问那傻问题了。。你的婚礼我不能出席。。再见了！”

女子的眼泪开始慢慢的流下来。。
不受控制的流下。。
她明白了！
女子跑去男子的家。。。
男子的妈妈出来，女子问妈妈男子呢？
妈妈说。。。
“他已经走了。”

消息太突然了，女子晕了过去。。。
她终于明白了。。

爱一个人，根本不需要理由也没有理由。。
有理由只是好听，用心来爱才是正正爱你的理由。。
嗯！

-善媚-

14.8.2009

2009-08-17T22:52:00.002+08:00

The last day of semester exam..
owh, a hard way to go through...

Bio paper !!! argh.. studied for the notes and text book..
==
all came out from past-year quetions..
Miss Irene told before.. to pay more attention on it..
but i didnt study for it.. !! damn gek sim...
*plang* heart broken

Chemistry..
hmm, i did not bad on this paper...
still ok la i means..
at least i know how to do..
just i really hate calculation !! always i cannot answer for that...
really have to put hard work on calculation.. sad =(
stupid brain dont know how to turn abit for calculation...

Physic..
ok... this more worst !
didint pay attention in physic class yet last minutes work..
ahh, dono what shit on that paper asking !!
probably Miss Lisa will just question those abit simply
but this Physic paper... dey wei, hard like sai !

Malaysian study...
wahhah !!!! i hate history ~
and... political.. puiks !!! dont understand at all..
=)
sorry Mr. Law

-sm-

Love? Relationship?

2009-07-25T23:14:00.003+08:00

Opss... love....
what is love actually??
love is powerful....
Parent's love - what we have now is what they had sacrificed
Friend's love - what the mood we have now is what we get from them
Lover's love - how tough we are is what they have give out

I, myself have parent's love, friend's love and lover's love..
wu haaaaaa.......................

Today after assignment, Shanmei, Jerome, Yingning and Chiaming
went out for dinner.. *steamboat* gold 1 lah dis steamboat *uek*
then suddenly take about relationship between guy and girl..
sudd pulak say me ~ me and my bf? ^^
laaaa....

He is not that handsome, not that tall, not that thin...
but 1 thing.. he is nice
he love me lots lots, he take care of me, he fulfill what i need...
i am the one who always hurt him..
do and say something hurtful that he cannot take it :p
he is ok for me :D everyone wish to find someone that love us rite~
good looking for just a look but with a bad attitude wad for?

Someone asked me before,

a very talented, rich, handsome guy, bad attitude
a normal looking, average brain and finance, good attitude

who will i choose for my partner..
i chose the second 1..
who is normal looking, average brain n finance....
everyone wish their Mr/Mrs Right is talent, rich and good looking..
but with a bad attitude, what for??
dont care you, no special treat, when you need him he cant come for u...
maybe some people just nid a partner who just can have sex with him/her
but i am a lovely person.. poor nevermind, as long as u care me..

Long story between me n him ^^
knew he through online game.. Meetoto
know he quite a long time..
after sometimes, he quit meetoto.. because his online hour reached 4000 hours
den we lost contact..
1 day he on skype... he find me...
that time he was appear offline, i tot that he not there..
but nvm, i left massage to him..
he replied, i was shocked..
and that time i was quite sleepy~ and he asked me go for a nap and he will wake me up..
he did, and start from that day.. he became my alarm clock :D*hehes*
long long long ~~ i have a weird feeling.. likes him maybe?
then he confess, i asked him why..
he said he likes me long time ago, just because last time dont dare to take my phone number so just let it be..
i was like OMG ?! is it a dream ?? ==

The first moment i met him.. i dont like..
i felt very fed up..
i dont even want to look at him..
he asked why, i dont dare to answer :)
but is true i dont like people to look at me..
i feel uncomfortable :p
then we almost break up *wohaa*
hmm, problem solved.... i felt better with him
the 2nd argument.. it came suddenly
almost break too... *yawn*
then our relation getting close and closer..

I learnt to appreciate him after that
i started to miss him.. care him.... and angry for him ! ^^
dear , love u ..

Maybe my friend dont like him..
how he look like.. too bad la.. i had chose
he changed, n i trust him.. aii~ dono lah....
if everything we have to observe n predict..
many thing we will never get through and experience it... :)

Ning, my darling...
hope she meet her Mr. Right...
she very fussy =.=
want this want that.. *euw*
sometimes beh dong her 1...
but Ning....
honestly, last time i think to have a handsome boyfriend too...
but, i experience too much of thing...not i have a handsome bf..
but my friend..
people around me...
they want to have a handsome bf... but at last they noticed that they are not that good
CAN SEE BUT CANNOT USE !
how he treat you is the most important..
but dont too ugly la *i agree* xD
luck for her ~ *mucks*

-sm-

boring

2009-07-25T22:35:00.002+08:00

~*College life....
hmm, May, June, July.. almost 3 months i study in INTI college..
college life is totally different from primary school and secondary school...
it's short period of studying and really have to put much effort on it..

~*College life...
getting closer and closer with classmates..
good improvement :)
but few classmates left d.. T.T that sad
makes more friend ^^

~*College life....
ya, i still can find the friend that i have in secondary school..
HELPFUL, CHEERFUL, CARING, JOKER, GUAI LAN friends..
at first i thought that i will never have friends like this..
but~ the fact told me.. what i think is totally wrong..

~*College life........
we really need friends when we live without parents..
ya, it's true..
and i am a messy person~ bodoh...
truly need people lend a hand, to take care of me.. ^^
i found 1.. MISS Loo Ying Ning~ (Nen nen)
she... help me face all the problem.. she is a best friend of mine :D
i love UuuUuu.. *geli*
she really take care of me..
today i was on phone.. we went for steamboat :D
she served the food for me.. *touched*
although i am not her best friend that i dono i am or not..
but she is mine :p

~*College life..
Jerome and Wilson are moving out..
*it's our fault also la*
because we BBQ in their house.. where their house is just lend from others
Jerome's friend parent i think..
BBQ for farewell party.. *wu ga*
then the neighbor complaint about it..
so the dumb dumb landlord dislike about it !
so... *move out*

~*College life..
Wilson will stay with his church friends..
while, Jerome will stay with me..
*eee shy* not same room with me la absolutely..
stay the back room~ Rm400.. air-con room.. wow ~ i wish i stay there too
because my room is just like VOLCANO !!!!!
vol 5 fan move like vol 1.. *curse* ^@*^#)@*#&@)#

~*College life..
Jerome will move in tomorrow ~ wheee
why i so happy ? not because i love him la..
is because I DONT NEED TO STAY ALONE ANYMORE !~!~!~!
*wu ga*
he gave me The Sims 3... i help him clean his room
nice deal rite :D

~*College life.....
everybody has different mind...
hard to know what they thinking and their porsonality..
although i can easily understand a person.. but it seems abit dangerous
Jerome has a lots of privacy.. *yuck* bull u ! hurh~ :@

~*College life..
now in college..
izit old friends not important anymore???
for me.. they are important.. but...
everyone seems like getting further and further from me
and i felt like.. not true friend anymore.... my best friend *if she see this, she will know who is dis person*
never contact for so long..
and whenever she contact me, i failed to answer her call..
is it a good or bad thing for me???
she changed.. and maybe i change too..
after the celebration of kc's birthday party... that is la..
gone... :(
i dont hope this happen to me.. but it happened..

-sm-

Feel Guilty....><

2009-06-22T23:22:00.004+08:00

Aiii.. thing came like this..

Today after class, 4pm...
we went for movie... 5.15pm
kevin not coming with us, he just fetching us there..
so is ok la ~ he dont want join what to do rite ~

Chia ming, vivian, ning, chong han, panyap, jerome, michael, me ~

Watched it for 2nd time.. == lame
so we finished our movie at 7pm sharp...
so we decided to have our dinner at Summit USJ

Hmm, stopped at dono what bloody shop~
and i odered hot plate mee~ *yummy*
ssssssooooooooooooooooooo........eat !

Finised our meal~ what somemore u guess.. !
chick chat laaa ~
cant close our mouth ma...
still discussing the movie.. DRAG ME TO HELL
hell man, damn shit...
den we talked ghost stories.. euw !!!
i was thinking, i sleeping alone.. can i?? omg

Then ! the stupid chong han wanna scare me...
Ning saw it, she keep on with her story adding some rubbish...
den he touched my back with his bloody short hand !!!
MAN !! i scream ... damn sked wey...
this what friend call lah !!! *beh syok ady*

hahahah ~ oh ya forgot to tell..
kevin gave ning a call.. he asked us nid him to fetch anot
i said nid la...
he said " i finish kicking ball at 8pm la~ u all eat first la~ after finish den give me a call i will go fetch u all"
den sudd i dono say what... he said ok la ~ take bus home..
== i was joking maa... so i tot he joking la.. i say ok la ! i fnish my meal den give u a call la

den 8pm++ he gave me a call...
asked where me...
i said i waiting for u la dey, u say fetch us rite...
that time he on his journey back home !
i was like WTH man~ u promised to fetch.. now back home pulak...
den he said, u think i joking a ? i serious la..
take bus back...
OK LAH !!! fine now.... !!!! *angry ady*
aksed me to take bus back... kanasai...
he asked me to go home and will give me another call after half hour make sure i reach home

Then we wait for jerome lurrr...
he fetching vivian, chia ming and michael back hostel first...
so me, ning, chong han, panyap lepak la~~~
xixi !!!

Den jerome reached~ we got into his car...
*RING RING RING*
kevin call~~ OMG !!
den sudd something evil came out from my mind...
i started to bull shit..

Here come THE STORY !!!
"""i walking back home la, u not fetchng me up ma.. so fine la.. still asked me to take bus..""
no la, i serious ma.. den y dont ask me to pick u up...
""u on ur way back home rite? so nvm la.. duwan trouble u"""
clawn lah u !! dont walk back home.. serious ah u???
"""yala, i told u got no bus rite at nite... so walk lah, what u tot?"""
crap lah u.. AIYOH AIYOH !! where the else?
""panyap n chong han went back dy to KTM station, ning back with bus cz she promised her grandma will be back at 7pm, jerome fetch them back ady..i tot u fetch me i wait la..""
CLAWN U ! *starting to shout* aiyoh aiyoh...
""dey, i will give u a call when i reach home ok? feel someone following me.."""
wei, u serious aaa?? okok..
""if i never text u, that means something happen on me""
clawn lah u !!!!!
""okok ~ i will give u a call.. i have to run now !!! i am sked"""

=========deng deng deng=========
dono whos ideas come out...
asked chong han to call up kevin and ask if i am save?
i think is jerome !!!
at last ning did it.. LOL !!!!
dis fella nicely say she felt guilty.. but ! bull shit NUMBER 1 man...

""hello kevin, u fetching shan mei rite? she reach ady izit??"""
^@*!%@^!)@*!Y@(dno what they talked)
""if something happen on her !!! u will get from me..so late ady walk back home ! u let her walk back home??? how if got raper?! huh??!!"""
%^#*!%#(!^@! *something something*
""yala i took bus.. if not what...""
*keep scolding n scold*
K la.. i give her a call now

=========ring ring ring==========
my phone rang~
IS KEVIN !!!
we refused to pick up his call at first..
ok~ then the 2nd time he call...
i pick up...
""yes? what""
where u now??? huh
""walking home la !! if not what u think a... i was running how pick up ur phone ! scary man !!!""
okok, where u now.. tell me
""*shout* i dono where am i now !!!!!!!!! scary !!!!!!!!1""""
wait wait, what around you.. try to tell me...
"""i dono, i saw somebody selling goreng pisang (actually is at the KTM station,jerome asked to say so)""""
ok, go ask them.. where u now
""i dont want !!! they look pervert !!! i scare la ! is indian guy"""
clawn u ! aiyoh !! just go ask laaa...
""""dont want... few indian guys there.. scare la.. i am away from the stall ady"""
kkk.. can u see the Summit bulding??
""no, kenot i dont see anything also !!!"""
aiii, i go out find u lah !!! where u now... try to say wad around u...
""errr, drains, house and ...dono lah !!! i dono whrre am i *scream* i scare lah !!!!!!!!"""
**he got so panic man... OMG!!***
wait, u playing with me izit??
~~den chong han said.. just tell him the truth la~~
ok la... tell ady laa....
hahahah !! apologize tooo~
den at the end of call.. i felt that he abit beh syok ady...
den just SEE YOU TOMORROW LA, BYE
hang up the phone !!!

I text him !!
he replied Ning first instead of me..
padahal i sent first.. haha dont care lah
**i duwan friend u guys ady la...*
lol funny kevin~
den i called him, he hang up my phone !!!
how dare u ~~~

Den i continue text him.. started to scold him..
how rude r u, hang up my phone dont reply my msg sumore..
den he said..
==just joke with u all la... i am not angry la dont worry...==
suddenly i feel like crying.. T.T
damn touch man...
den he said that still have to do bio report for u rite...
OMG MAN !!!!
if i am not strong enough,.. i fall in love with KEVIN ady..

Seriously he is a nice guy~~
aii.. started to love him much ady laa...
hehehehs~
sorry kevin ~ love u ~ muacksssss....
scared u.. really touched with it..
so panic n so caring..

-sm-

INTI college's life

2009-06-22T22:36:00.005+08:00

Yipiyaya~~~ yipi yi pi yaaaa.......
SORRY WITH MY BROKEN ENGLISH OR ANY PASAR WORDS
THIS MY BLOG AND I LIKE TO WRITE WHATEVER I LIKE..
I LIKE TO BULLSHIT HERE~ OK ... SO ! IF U FELT BEH SYOK, JUST CLOSE THE ICON RIGHT SIDE OF UR SCREN WITH A CROSS... click IT !!!!
i am not writting an essay that have to pass up to teacher..
this the way i express myself and who am i.. just being myself :p

K la~ college's life... quite fun actually...
learn to be independent a lots man.~~~
wash shirt by my own, cook ( actually no ), study, do homework (sometimes), play alone
but i still can stand it la~ cz i learn to be independent since i was small kid :D

Wuhhaaa n fool around still cannot leave me alone...
the habits still attracting me to be like this, GOSH !!!
lucky~ my classmates can accept it.. *thanks god*
some of my classmates are funny~ whee !! *clap clap*
but some of them look retarded *puiks*

Speak alot... ENGLISH !! language that i stopped for dono how many bloody years..
since i started my primary school.. that the chinese primary school~
hahaha, last time i was english educated ~ xD
not believe rite??
*curi curi tell u all* although i study in chinese school, but my chinese is not that good..
even suck than a kindergarden man ! so, dont use word that seriously hard, i wont understand... hehehes.. i speak chinese just with my sister, brother and friends~

K la, blaha lots d...
n now.. my favourite words that always came out from my mouth man !
RETARDED , POKE, BLOODY, DAMN, SHIT
*to my classmates, i know u all sure saying that one more word is missing ok.. that the FUCK word*
hey guys, i use it if i am really hunrgy... #angry# !! gosh typo
i seldom use it rite, i mean got but not always.. better than EVA *laugh*

Seriously la~ i love them a lot.. =)
found another retarded gang after seperate with secondary school's friends...
wooo~ although it's abit different la..
because we got different thinking ma.... so like this la ~ :D

Ning is the first friend i knew in class.. we used to be close after we knew each other from the 2nd day i guess??
at first, i think she is a kind of.. quite serious person cz i still dont understand her..
den, times gone long~ she .... abit insane too !! LOL ~ suit me :p
k la, i love her.. that all..

Eva? the fella who came from UK...
another retarded too... she's damn funny ...
she the one started all those F word, den i got virus on it dy.. aiks
v being gathered quite a lots also la~
talk perv, crap, bullshit, bully each other ~
AND YA !! cashing ALIEN togather ! xD xD
love her too la..

Kwan tsien.... the genius ~ she is pretty smart...
hehehes~ love her too..
fair, thin... small... look like a hamster .. cutes !
dont think to chase her ok~ she got a bf :D
later her bf poke u !
but she leaving soon... going to India for her futhur study.. *sad*

Chia ming.. this fella selamber only~
fake Hong Kong princess
"if i was a boy......"
sing along, crap along, talk along.... like nobodies problem..
ahhahs, cute girl..
thin, tall, fair ~
she is SINGLE AND AVAILABLE.. ~ woho !

Vivian... wohoo
she made me a mini card~ damn touching man T.T
vivian, is ok~ i made the salad for u..without CHEESE !! wheee~
special for u..
friend ma, dont nid calculate so much lah ! ^^
she leaving too.. further study in US ! syok man !
miss u much..
and be happy dont be sad ! forget him ! u will find a better one.. <3

Samantha... Hong Kong princess !
this the real 1 la... just join us few weeks ago~ hahah..
quite pretty~ wuuhuuu...
she is leaving soon too.. T.T
to nilai INTI~
thanks for your keychain ! love u.. will remember u

Rukhy.... wuha ! dis fella... hahahaha
weird character.. sometimes happy sometimes emo~
LOL !!!! got scared sometime.. aii heart attack man..
she used to come my house~~ waiting her mum.. xixi ~
welcome u lah my friend.. muacks ! ^^
and where my rice cooker huh~

Sanguitar??? geetar???
whateva la.. what i remebered is SQIWAWA !!!!!!
euw~ cute little dog...
hahahahs~
dis fella gone wild for nothing.. suddenly ny.. scary man !
always got bully from us.. :S
pity fella too..

Sharon, dont know she well~
that all... :)

Thipan.. oh dis indian guy rite
my dear ~~~ beloved husband...
hhahaha, i also dono why i got attention to him la
because of his name i think... n he is totally cute..
got bullied from me also nvm~ just smile.. his respond *cubit*
dont curang huh !!

Kevin... DEY GOSH !!! another dear of mine...
>< style="font-size:130%;">Jerome...
muscular egg?? wu lat eh "nui" (hokkien)
hahaha... created dis nickname cz of his name...
LOL ~~~~
at first, he is a cool guy.. dono is shy or act cool..
den sudd we got so closed ady... :D
quite happy also la ~ at last evrybody in class got clsoe ady ma..
dis fella like to pretend 1.. and always tersleep. ! TERSLEEP !!!
hahah.. funny guy also la...
he dump Wilson away and chase Kavin *angry*

Wilson..
this fella, dono how to say him la...
serious? not... cool?not... sot ha sot ha? YES !
he look cute..... got bully also la ~ pity him.. xD
ur fried rice.. LOL !!!!! i will never forget the moment we cooked in kitchen..

Eric, another indian fella..
not that close with him at first...
he dont talk much, dono what gum stuck in his mouth.. xD
today, he taught me Physic... dey man !
i understand it immediately ~ GOSH !!!
a great teacher :)

Michael.. i know i spell it wrongly nvm lah~
dont care also..
dis fella sudd come join our class.. xD hahaha
funny guy also...
HE AND JEROME ! scared me after watching the horror movie..
DRAG ME TO HELL !!
man, if i got crazy.. i will drag u 2 to hell
*geram*
a tall guy .. with an innocent face :D

Chong sien...
dont know him well too~
he likes guy? i dont know la.. hahaha
heard nia ~ maybe :o who knows...
nothng is impossible ma~ hahahaha...
support u lah~ ^^

Chong Han..
OMG?! wong chong han????
absalutely not la...
ppl lengzai than him much much more... *clap*
dis shorty? OMG !
he is cute la.. with the way he laugh...
like retarded kid... special way of laughing man !!
akakakax~
my first victim who got bully from me

Pan Yap...
this totally a uncle...
lucky he not wearing singlet xD
he bit weird la..
sometimes joke, sometimes serious..
cannot take it man ~~~~
his brain... narrow like hel.ll !!!
even i call him dear.. as a friend rite???
he also felt "yerrrr" that what he said
euw !
u should feel proud that i called u that

No more rite???? i think so lah ~~~~~~
and lastly is me lah !!!
the cutest 1.. agree rite !
nenene bubu~

-sm-

hao jiu bu jian~ long time no see~

2009-06-22T22:21:00.003+08:00

Yo !!! stop posting for so long... hahaha..
i'm kinda busy la~ so sorry yea for my viewer... :p

13th june 2009... my birthday~
is quite lonely also la actually =)
because you know what...
i came kl rite now.. so cant like last time celebrate it gather with one whole big gang~
although there's some friends here, but it feel different too

Ok, now i gonna shoot somebody...
the name begin with LIM... following with wei bin...
dumb dumb !!! how dare u forgot my birthday.. don't say u dont ok !
even rose jiejie remember it and wish me before u ! *slap*
and SOMBODY said that will phone me and sing me birthday song... *angry*
see la, i will wait man.. MAN !! i wait the day...
if THIS FELLA phone me when i was in class, that it... U will get it from me

K la.. stop that
hmm, went out withh others friend that day~
i got 20++ msg on phone... 25++ pm from MSN n SKYPE..
*touching* feel like crying man..
hahaha ~~~
then i went out until 2am+ ny back home...
a tiring day~ GOSH !! xD
got few presents from them...
*hammy, bag, big bear small bear*

Hahahasss~~
actually quite lots of my friends birthday on june la..
see them can celebrate with whole gang, quite jealous also la~ hahahas !!
but that over ~ so forget about it :p

happy long long sm ~~~

我的心情，我能面对吗？

2009-04-18T22:49:00.003+08:00

其实。。。。
我。。。
在想什么呢？是我想太多吗？
还是我太傻了？

我真得不能很轻易的相信一个人了。。
是为什么呢？
我太多心了吗？我太敏感？
我不知道。。。我真得不知道

没有安全感吗？我。。。真的是有一点的
我真得很想跟你坦白，可是我又不想烦到你
毕竟我们都还没有确定我们的感情
可能我告诉你这些你会觉得很无聊很无奈
我真地对自己很没有信心！也许是我之前的感情问题
导致现在我变成这样了！！很辛苦对吧？

真得很抱歉。。我真得很想好好爱你，可是我能吗？
还记得我告诉你，为什么那么多女子你会选择我吗？
因为你身边真得太多太完美的女子了。。。
选择了我，是我太意外了！因为我并没有想过
我也不知道那一天你遇见了我你会嫌弃我。。。。
也许我并不是你想象的那种
真得好想对你说一声对不起

也许我们之间谁都不了解谁，
我们都缺乏沟通。。
你，能给我机会来好好了解你吗？
虽然我每次都发脾气哦
可是我也不知怎么了
就不能够控制阿
也许我太紧张你了

你告诉我说，你在意我
你可以为了我吃醋
我真得很开心。。嘻嘻！
可能是可以让我更确定我们的感情。。
昨天的鸡蛋是谁呢？我终于知道了~
唉！就只是我傻罢了。。。
老是爱想那些有的没的

曾经有人告诉我说
你，很花心。。。
他不喜欢你。。。。
就他知道我跟你在一起了
他有问我。。我就算了也没有怎样
我真得没有勇气对你说这些
我只好写出来。。对不起，我没有用

“只要我看到你和别的男生一起~我心里就会有点不爽”
我。。真得不知道该说些什么。。
真得很谢谢你
你知道吗？之前你对我重视爱不理不睬
就我也不知道我们之间是怎样的
可能我们之间只是游戏而已
但。。。直到那一天，你我终于坦白了
我真得很开心！
那天晚上我鼓起勇气好好地问你。。。
你也很坦白告诉我！哈哈~你给了我肯定

其实你是否真得喜欢我呢？
我也不知道。。
我并没有得到一个很确定的答案。。
也许对你来说并不重要，但是对我来说真得很重要。。
可能之前给我带来的伤害太大了。。
如果你早认识我你应该会了解。。。
好好笑哦，我竟然用这种方式对你表达我的心情。。
你说你的表达能力不好，其实我也好不到哪里去。。。。
虽然我生气伤心，我也不会表达出来
我只是静静一个人。。。
慢慢地去忘记！！

不知道你又没有在看
可是也没关系。。。
我只是想说出来而已
谢谢你傻傻的在我身上浪费时间
一个人坐在那边看我打东西！！

可是哦~
你真得有一点沉默。。
你不多话，也许你不爱讲话把。。
可是你懂吗？你说的每一句话都融化了我的心
嗯，融化了。。
很甜，很有意思，真得很让我惊讶！
你呢？宝贝。。你又有什么东西说啊？
好想听你心里的话。。
好想知道你的过去。。
你会是一个怎样的人呢？
你的恋爱是怎样的啊？
嘻嘻！

你以前花心。。现在不会了？
为什么呢？我。。。又那种力量让你改变吗？
我们认识的时间不长
了解也不多
你真的认定我了？
我真得能让你改变吗？
唉！预想不到。。。
说真的，感情真得无法党。。
可是，你爱我不深阿，为什么会改呢？
我，会不会也是被玩的哪一个女子！？
不懂，我不知道。。
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！

我们到底是怎样的呢？是什么关系阿~
=。=
我不会回答
我希望我们能够对彼此坦白。。。
你也说说你的东西给我听好吗？

-善媚-

蜻蜓

2009-04-10T14:59:00.002+08:00

~*你曾经听过吗？
就是这样的一个故事。。。。
这样的一个爱情故事。。。。

~*从前，从前。。
有一对非常恩爱的情侣。。。。
日日夜夜都在一起。。。。
他们发誓要永远爱一起。。

~*很不幸的！
突然有一天。。
正当女孩要去找男孩的时候，发生了一场车祸。。。
医生：“你的女朋友昏迷去了”“醒来的机会率很低”
男孩：“什么？！医生，求求你救救我的女朋友”
医生：“我们已经尽力了，只能靠他自己”
男孩：“谢谢。。。。”

~*就这样。。。
女孩几天几夜没有醒过来。。
白天，男孩不停呼唤恋人回来。。
“你还记得我们的约定吗？！我们要永远在一起啊！你不能丢下我就这样孤独一个人！”
“你醒醒啊！！！我爱你。。。”
夜晚，男孩跑到教堂向上帝祈祷。。。
“神阿！你听见我的。。请你救救我的女朋友啊！”
男孩把泪都哭干了。。。。他只想就回他的女朋友

~*男孩还是像往常一样到教堂去祈祷。。。
“你愿意用你的生命来作为交换吗？”
是谁？谁在说话。。。。
原来男孩的苦心感动了上帝！！
男孩 : “我愿意”
上帝：“我可以让你的恋人醒过来，但是你必须化成三年的蜻蜓”
男孩：“我愿意！只要能就到他就行了”

~*之后，女孩真的醒了过来
他四处打听男孩的下落
可惜到最后还是打听不到
每当夏天倾听都必须离开！
女孩等了一年又一年。。始终等不到男孩

~*三年的期限很快就到了
可是就在最后一天，女孩跟另一个男孩举行了婚礼！
看着他们甜蜜的亲吻。。。
女孩说这“我愿意”
蜻蜓伤心得掉下了眼泪。。。

~*上帝 : “后悔了吗？”
蜻蜓摇摇头。。
“不，我不后悔。。就让我做一辈子的蜻蜓吧！”
就这样。。男孩化为蜻蜓过这一辈子。。。。
默默的守护着女孩。。。看着它拥有一个幸福的家庭

~*有些缘分注定要失去，有些缘分是永远都不会有结果的。。。
爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有一个人就一定要好好去爱她！
这个道理你明白吗？

然后。。你的肩膀上有蜻蜓吗?
是幸福的蜻蜓还是守护的蜻蜓呢？

-善媚-

我也愿望也就是我的烦恼

2009-04-10T14:12:00.002+08:00

~*哎!

~*去吉隆玻读书。。。
愿望实现了。。可是，我开心吗？？
我是野蛮吗?我会害了我爸爸妈妈吗？
我做的选择是对的吗？
为什么我的心并不觉得很开心呢？

~*实现了。。
可是我却想了很多东西。。。
我开始害怕了。。
我会变坏吗？我能读吗??
我很矛盾。。。。。也很忧郁
怎么啦？！我是怎么了！！！！我搞不懂。。
还是form 6才是一个好选择？
既然我做了这个选择！我就一定要奋斗下去！！！
就算没有人支持我都好，无所谓。。。。
我要相信我能的!! 哎。。。。

~*我就要离开家里了。。。。。
我可以吗？我能够吗?
我真得那么坚强那么独立吗？?

~*时间过得很快的。。。
我。。就要走了！！！！！！！
唉！!怎么办。。。。。。
算啦！！就顺其自然吧！

善媚！加油。。。。 ^^

-sm-

缘分....

2009-03-19T12:39:00.002+08:00

原来缘分要来的时候真的挡不住...
可是, "缘" 也有有缘无份....
那个份~刚刚走了....

哎,今天听到一个朋友告诉我..
之前又找过我..可是他找的那个并不是我本人...
真地给他咋到!!!
他表白...可是我错过了那一幕!! 哈哈...
听听也爽嘛....呵呵..

可是奇怪阿...
为什么对象会是我啊?
他身边那么多人~又美又好!! 嘻嘻.....
可是也蛮开心的他有这份心意!!! 哈哈哈哈哈....

现在, 他也有女朋友啦...
就祝他快快乐乐, 开开心心咯!~!~!~
呵呵...

这些就是缘...
也就是有缘无份.....
就区区隔几个星期, 事情就变了那么多啊~~~
呵呵..蛮好笑的...

呵呵呵呵呵.....~~~
谁都不能怪..因为那个是你的命运..
:)

-善媚-

The Feelings...

2009-03-19T12:17:00.003+08:00

Recently.. i hard to get into sleep..
SLEEP.. actually is that easy..
close ur eyes, rest ur mind.. then sleep...
its so easy, but i cant do it..
evrytime i sleep, i think so many things.. i dono why..
why i cant like before, straight away get sleep when i on the bed..

Aii, i really duwan continue like this la..
vry suffer !!!!!!!!! vry xin ku !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel like wanna cry out loud.. aii.. when i can end all of this..

Why my dad dont know what i feel?
what they felt is what i felt too..
i i i ... >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< ><
act they love me anot?
dono, i cant answer this !!!!!!
because i cant feel it .....
mayb yes? mayb no... =(

I am big enough.. i just wanna make my choice..
i duwan make myself regret..
that my future what i have my power to choose it !!!!!
I HAVE MY CHOICE !!!!!
grr, gek sim..
God, why you treat me like this...

Aii,
i am still myself.. i have nvr change before..
dont say me change..

Dad, did u know?
pc the only true friend for me..
my feeling, my sad happy dissapoint..
only PC know it..
here is the place where i can share and express out evrything..
at home, nobody talk with me..
only watch the 4 walls around me..
T.T
if i talk with u all, sure will have argument..
i dont want..
i tired with all of that.. aii~

-sm-

SPM result..

2009-03-16T12:47:00.002+08:00

Ok, lets talk about SPM result ( O-level)
my result damn SUCK !!!!!!!
aii~ i wish those B got A...
kanasai..

My parents surely dissapointed of it..
aii, they aspect for more As..
and they tot i will win my sis...
cz UPSR PMR i most high..

Then, out relation like not that good....
i seldom talk ady..
or maybe i dono how to face them T.T
i realy feel deeply upset and hurt.....

Spm is just a result for scholar wad...
why so serious?? i still can choose to study what ma~
then what i study next is what i wanna be ma !~!~!~!
grrr, vry gek sam they dont understand...

From the moment they knew my result..
they never give some comfort words at all !!!
even my frend got bad result..
her family dont care but worried about her...
how sweet is her, i wish i am her.. T.T

I dono now i gonna study where...
so... i dono
aii~ i have no more energy to do or say anything..
let God decide evrything ba..

-sm-

wo hui lai le ~~~~ i am back !`!~!!~!~

2009-03-16T12:19:00.002+08:00

Ok la.. my pc spoiled.. so~ i cant use~ and there is no other pc for me ~
so there's no update ^^

Ok..after Spm~i went for work... as a cashier.. ><
aii, i 1 person work there without friend o...
but i learn something.. INDEPENDENT! !
and how dis world is..
some ppl treat u nicely~ but like to backstab..
you will never know how a person heart is...
if you know, you have to pretend also..
so, it is SUFFER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok la~ i think finished le ba..
suan le~
bybye~

-sm-

Raining Day....

2008-12-17T17:51:00.002+08:00

~*rain not rain ...
rain and not rain....

~*sudd felt so emo...
so sad...
felt wana cry...
but i dont.. :D

~*hmmm,
KL trip with frend?
think of a promise....
promise from someone, that i could meet...
and we play for the 3 days 2 nights...
at last it's just a white paper... =)

~*you happy during the trip? he asked..
i said dono... had no feeling..
ya, it's true...
that time i was so misarable...
i was like heal from hurt? or...?
dono, i really dont feel sad, happy or anything...

~*today, saw his pm...
haha~
he miss her, he want her, he need her...
but did the girl know that?
half half ba i guess...
the girl is so lucky.. such a guy so love her and waiting for her..
wad i can say just she dont know what is APPRECIATE

~*chat with him today..
haha... dont know how to answer his quetion...
he told me that the girl came back to Malaysia..
=.=
but he failed to meet her...
cz the day she reached KL, he just back from malacca to KL..
and it's night ler... so cant..
sudd i felt so KE XI... by rite he can meet her ba? =)

~*i wished him that she could meet her 1 day...
mayb CNY...
and myab there will be gather again... who know? :D
he replied : you too...
msn sudd stuck...
pc hang... restart pc...
find back him, no reply..
mayb it's fate bah.. end of us..

~*ya,
you dont nid to say sory..
it's no sorry in love rite....
sorry so wad?
for the thing you had done? for the swet memories you gave and broke it at once?
cant even cure my hurt.... so pls dont sorry...
still rmbr the reason you told me...
aii, it's really preety hurt.. but..
for me? i dont trust... kakax~
it's no reason for u to do all this for a girl u dont like at all?
too fake.. but wateva...
all is unimportant d..... u had go... i had leave...

~*hurt? pain?
all is over... or mayb it will come again?
future? dont know...

-sm-

The Growth! ~.~

2008-12-17T17:44:00.002+08:00

~*wee wang wang~
last 2 days i went down KL...
den hor, yesterday just came back...
in the car was so boring..

~*i took sis's purse
started to look out evry single thing inside
saw her pic...

~*den i took mine out...
show her my GROWTH !!

~*wow~
IC : 12 years old
Student Card : 14/15 years old
Driving Lisence : 17 years old

seee my growth !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~*grow up so sui liao~ xD xD
dont critic me a ! chop u all ark... T.T

~*hmmm...

i live for 17 years old le...

experienced so many things....

sad, happy, sweet, hurt... all are so memorable...

now, i am a teenage..

and i have to decide my future le...

~*think...

what would me be for future?

who am u for future?
how my life would be for future?

"DONO" :p

-sm-

dEng D3ng deng~`~~~

2008-12-17T17:34:00.003+08:00

~*back from Kuala Lumpur...
reached kuantan : 5.30pm
reached home : 6pm

~*1 more hour !!!!!!!!
to teacher's wedding o!!!!
so exited to see teacher~

~*ok i tell u wad...
11 person at this table.. all kaki lang..
evry dish came..
not over 3 minutes ! all eaten... walao! =.=
mad sia...

~*dis water.. i dono when the made it
i was in toilet.
came bac with jia wen...
they treat her dis drink i mean without the carrot and bone
LOL !!!
the told her is tea only...
acutally it's TEA + SPRIT
~*then i add on it.. nice rite? xD

~*why i always photo with her huh?

i also dono...

cz she really like camera sia! xD xD

~*yummY!! vege! mushroom !!!!!!!! i love it~ muacks

~*teacher's wedding car o! lalala~ got mickey and minnie~

~*weird why no teacher face?

lol nvr snap tio lor..

teacher was so so busy~
oh ya...

~*15 years old : science

16 years old : add math & modern math

17 years old : add math & modern math

3 years ler~ she taught me.

T.T

feel bit she bu de ~~~ oh oh~~~

became ppl's wife and mummy le o...

i love u always teacher~

althought my add math suck ! but i know u love me xD xD

-sm-

Back to Hotel lerr !! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

2008-12-17T17:22:00.002+08:00

~*ok...
went back to hotel le rites...
then...
6.12.2008

~*Yvonne Lin Li En
Bird day o~ xD xD
but i dono the others plan...
they said go room so i just go lor..
sienz T.T
bo plan gather

~*okies
the cake... wad and wad i dono...
cz i dont try...
and cz i dont like chocolate in cake.. uek
but thre were 2 BUSKIN ROBIN ice-cream nehs~
~*see dis fella eat till....
jz came in got suprice.. den took the ice-cream and
*yum yum yum*
aii~
~*oh ya...
she birdday i also didnt wish her..
cz i quite moody dat time *sorry* :D

yvoonne nin a~
wish u happy birthday o~
after dis year, we seperate liao~
so, mayb we could not meet ler....
u r my friend and always be mine :)
love u.. muacks..
dont forget me.. surely i wil punch u if u did it ! hurh!

~*ok finished cake???
dis the problem...
who gona clean it up..
*not me for sure* :p
~*continue stay at the room...
snap photo *boliao* ma !!!

~*we didnt went bk to our room leh!

stay at guys room... LOL!!!

~*see, that fella playng guitar...

feel romantic rite?

actually it is not ! :D

~*ok just dono why i was sleeping on the bed

he came and slept beside me !

zzz, ok lar... act it's his bed xD xD muAhaahh

den sudd think of dis action~ :)

pai seh sia i do like dis... siao! they wana snap it sumore ~.~

really sien till nth to play~

ok, i am not horny or wad dont simply think.. zzz

*he is not handsome, but i jz imagine he is*

JOKING!!!!!!!!!!!!

~*ok, the whole night sleep at guys room...

but dis fella sleep at another bed...

i slept with yvone~

nenene bubU~~~

guys room ---> girl room

kakax xD xD

-sm-

Genting Highland

2008-12-17T16:35:00.012+08:00

5.12.2008
~*journey to genting !! whee~ xD
the SKYWAY~~~
tell u o~ is the fastest skyway in world but longest in ASIA Tenggara

~*omg, see this?! i wish i could sit on dis... sure vry syok! xD muahahah

~*the screnary... nice rites? cold o~

~*Genting Skyway

~*seee... so pretty

~*hang on there~ wad could u feel *cold* giggless~*the way.... to First World Hotel

~*in the cabal car.. muahhaah not forget to snap photo o~

[jiawen, meis, pek]

~*[chunkit, meis, nee] the guy siao 1 xD act cute yoRHss

~*is meis o! sui bo~ *hai xiu*

~*sui lehs... xD xD muahahah~~~ *zi lian dao...*

~*the lobby of First World hotel~ nice rite

~*after checked in~

went for the ticket.. ticket of outdoor and indoor activities

den, i wana snap this... measurement of height!

after snaped.. i saw the image =.= za dao !!!

look seriously.. like what?

*like a girl and a guy..* LOL! think urself

~*whee~ went outdoor liao~

saw dis cute cute geh... dono call what =.=

close ear ! eeee rm15 o! not worth ba~ nvr buy xD

~*the pirate ship !!!!!!!

OMG, i tell u this.. this game is really syok!

we sat there.. then, we SHOUT! for exitement.. actualy its no feeling at all

*lame shit*

see me? cant find me??

neh, the one with pink colour thing covering my ear o~ xD xD

~*turn turn cup ! OMG! dizzy man~

~*dizzy stil can snap photo lar.. :D

~*yorhs~ jw and meis~

~*colourfull First World Hotel. nice hor ! i paint d ler ! :p

~*water boat~ wheee~bo play T.T~*way to mindtrain

~*[wei han, zineu, meis, pek] friend friend~ wheee

~*here add on 1 goat~ [lao yang, shong jen]~*the mine train ! i reached !!!!!!! i jz play it for 1 time ny ler...

and it was long long time ago =.= sob~

ok ! when i was there...

the worker told me..

"sorry, its closing now."

"oic, when it will be open again?"

"miss, 5pm"

FINE !!!!!!!!!!!!! it's 4pm now ! WTF !

there are long line ppl ther leh!

~*aii, finished play...

den hor, i sicked... T.T

SICK !!!!!!!!!!!!!! how charm am i... wuwuwuw

den i bk to hotel rest alone...

den i brought ticket DREAMZ for my friend...

so i went to Snow World to meet them..

~*so happy !! i can felt it !!!! i want go in T.T

~*8pm ler.. so i phone...

they duwan go in !!! OMG i was wasting my time wait and stood there for half hour man .. T.T

den i went off.. and walked again...

~*its time to watch the show !

DREAMZ

white lion, tiger and 2 cute doggy...

aii, camera is not allowed...

suan lur~ kenot record it down...

~*after show, we went in ghost house !

OMG ! wolf house...

i tot it was the ghost house same as last time.

wtf, i went in...

TOTALLY diff lehs... =.= kak nak sai

not fun at all...

but i stil shout xD xD the ppl sudd come out and " HA! "

:D thanks KEEKUNG for accompany me...

LOL !!!

he hug me sia... so tigh, sked i drop down~ *touched*

and ya, KET... sorry xD xD

i was hot dat time, dat y my hand sweating.. :p

~*finish liao lor~

back hotel !!!

i sleep while i walk...

really sick + tired

abit fever...

and my voice ... LOL! funny

-sm-

Holidays..~~

2008-12-17T15:58:00.006+08:00

3.Dec.2008

~*that is !

hahah~ our journey to kl~~~~~

whEeee... =)

~*start : 8am

reach : 11.30am

3/ half hours ! my pigu sibeh pain and dizzy

BULAN RESTU the bus... nia gui ><

~*reached..

we ate our lunch~
hungry sia. *ngrok ngrok ngrok*

HONG KONG RESTAURANT ... kakax xD xD yummy yummY~

~*ok, den went for shopping lorr....

SG. Wang orhs~ laaaa..

~*the next day, SUNWAY PYRAMID =)

dis building changed so much o..
and chrismas is coming~ decorasion BINGO~!

~*what dis !? C O N D O M

hahah~ its a free gift nehs !

sudd give me see tio~ xD xD

~*ok times up!

is time to go back hotel lur~
*tired tired* omg !!

~*bus from sunway bk to pekeliling rm0.70

~*MRT station

~*lalala~ xD

-sm-

ended.... evrything..

2008-12-01T14:44:00.002+08:00

~*Evrything ended...
it's end........
end with tears...
end with fake...
end with curelness...

~*This few days..
i really cant be alone and hanging there without do anything..
i will start to think, refresh evrything...
T.T
it's hurt.. pain and... bleed..
the 2nd times deep wound...
DEEP WOUND !!!!

~*Am i too stupid? or too dan chun....
1 time and 1 time...

~*Evrythig is fake?
is a lie?
can me accept it??? =.=
my answer : NO !
although i knew it earlier..
but.. i still dont hope dat the answer really is like dis..
am i really a good healer?
evryone come heal den go..
come and go... so fast yet so urgen
T.T

~*Who thereby to hear my voice
heal my wound?
hear my heartbit....
who.... sui... siapa.. bin gor...

~*good bye my love~
wo de ai ren zai jian~
moon is preety and perfect....
so as a human too =)

~*hope you will happy with the new...
forget the pass and gather with new..
ur love...
the one who u really love...
muakcs, i love u...
dont need to say sorry..
worry will make my wound more...... =(

~*a new life?
i dont know wether i can anot...
bye...

-sm-

很冷的一个晚上。。

2008-11-27T23:07:00.002+08:00

~*天空还是那么的黑。。
天依然还是下着雨。。
没有停过。。
潮湿的马路。。冷冷的空气。。。
触碰倒我的皮肤。。
入身入骨。。

~*我，终于哭了。。
眼泪突然掉了。。。
真的掉了！谁？谁来安慰我？
感觉真的好无助阿！！！
你呢？你在哪里？？亲爱的你，我伤心流泪时你在哪儿啊？
我的心情真的很复杂啊！！！！
我该怎么办呢？
我好想拥抱你。。在你的怀里，就像一个小孩。。
哭泪了就睡觉。。。深深暖暖温温甜甜的睡一觉！
靠一靠肩膀都好啊。。
可是呢，当泪从脸滑下滴到腿时。。
才发现，是一个梦。。。一个自我安慰的梦。。
好好笑哦！！

~*这时的我。。
对这电脑边打边哭。。。。
只是很想好好放出来。。。。。
在一个没有人会回答我的世界里把我的心话说出来。。
不对，是打出来。。

~*真的不明白你在想什么。。
我不懂。。是我笨吗？还是我不够了解你呢？
能告诉我吗？
我现在在你的心到底是什么？属于什么？
我问我自己
：“他还爱我吗？还是，我自作多情？”
：“他是太闷了吗？才找我？”
哈哈，傻问题！
如果你看了你一定会告诉我
“你都不相信我的”

~*我要如何呢？
答应过我会陪我，
会让我相信你，
会让我快乐。。。
是诺言吗？
我真的很不喜欢承诺！
可是，傻傻的我们却很喜欢听。。
会接受那些有的没的。。。。
其实都是因为相信，才会变傻。。
因为爱你，说一变傻。。。。
在爱情里，大家都是傻瓜！
聪明人往往都是失败者！
因为到最后受伤的事自己。。。
我说的没错吧？

-低落的sm-

雨天。。。。

2008-11-27T14:07:00.002+08:00

~*哎。。今天下雨了。。
从昨天晚上到今天还在下着雨。。。
雨天中真的能让人想起很多东西。。

~*昨天到戏院去看戏。。
突然间很冷很冷。。。
我是一个很怕冷的人。。我很难在冷的空气下活下去。。

~*突然间，好希望有个厚厚的手。。
把我的手握紧。。从中找到温暖。。
但，那只能想象而已。。。
因为你不在。。。
如果你在，会是什么感觉呢？我们会怎样呢？

~*无聊着。。
就上来写写。。

~*突然的，我觉得好空虚。。
我觉得我们的距离便的好远了。。
是我多心吗？是我想太多吗？真的吗？
那感觉真的不好受。。我真的很想哭。。

~*没得和你无时无刻连络的时间。。。
真的过的好慢好慢。。。慢的很痛苦。。
我们跟本没有属于我们自己的事件。。。
我不知如何告诉你。。。
我不想让你觉得烦，不想让你。。。让你。。。。
难言。。=（

~*我们真的能幸福吗？
我问我自己。。
我不想问你。。因为我知道你的答案。。
可是你能让我确定我们的感情吗？确定我的感觉。。
T.T

~*谁还记得　
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得
当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　
说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的　
有一天　
有一天都会停的
亲爱的
虽然我也害怕在天黑了以后　
我们都不知道会不会有以后谁还记得　
是谁先说
永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久　
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　
说要一起走到最后
我们都累了　
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑　
怎么说　
怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
虽然我也害怕
两个相爱的人
等着对方先说想分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远　
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我　
要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得　是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口过了太久
没人记得当初
那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起
走到最后
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

~*你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了
我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢我懂了
不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
怎么了
你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得

-情绪化中的sm-

hmmm...

2008-11-26T13:41:00.002+08:00

~*Okies.. finish my exam today ! yes !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but the structure of Chinese is totally suck man !!!
what 古文 (old language)... nia bu ark...
i dono wtf it saying bout ! =.= really kanasai.. T.T

~*Hmm..
by the way.....
one of the story of the quetions come like dis...

~*There's two patients in a room....
the patient who sleep beside ( A )window can stand up or sit up about 2 times in a day but just for 1 hour.
the patient who not sleep beside window ( B ) cannot stand or sit but just can sleep all day long..
so, A will sit or stand for 2 hours evryday...
he will tell B about what he saw outside the window...
B started to jealous A ...
and he asked himself : " why he can sleep beside window but not me?"
he felt guilty that he think like dis.. so he force himself to forget about it..
but, it keep on come out from his mind and his sickness become more serious...
One day, A suddenly felt uncomfortable and hard to breath...
*tit tit tit* he dead...
after fews day, B requested to sleep beside window...
so, the doctor and nurses move him to the bed beside window...
after the doctor went off, he felt that hard to breath and vry sick..
and the look at the window...
he found that ..
THE WINDOW IS TOTALLLY NOTHING BUT JUST A PLAIN WALL !!!!!!!!!

~*Oh my...
how touched am i when i was reading this story...
A is so nice man....
this is what friendship call~

~*The ppl outside there..
appreciate with what you have.. =)
once it go, forever gone...
we have to smile for what had passed, but not cry for what had passed..

~*我们都遇到太多的风风雨雨。。在这个世界我们要学会去珍惜才能给自己留下美好的彩云。。。。事情的发生并没有谁对谁错，只是看你愿不愿意做故事的创造者。。。

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The first thing i did... after....

2008-11-25T17:26:00.002+08:00

huh? o? eh? ih? uh? oh ?

~*the first thing i did after came back frm school is...
DENG DENG DENG DENG !!!!!!!!!!!!

-=*walk to room and took sis' s laptop-=+*

~*muahahahha~
computer is my life~ my soul~
emotionlly physically and mentally EXITED!!

~*then... i click... on.....
binbin kor's blog....
who knows... i saw the sentence with...
*all with with red eyes...............*
at first i was thinking izit another ghost story?
with the curious, i continued scroll and read....
OH MY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's a dead T.T

~*kor's grandpapa dead....
awww, when i was reading his blog... i really felt touched and wanna cry...
oh my oh my.. it let me think back the moment my grandmama and grandpapa died.. T.T

~*a kor.. =)
dont so sad okies?
meimei sayang~ *muacks*
may gong gong rest in peace lor....
although he has gone... but he still inside ur heart
we should smile for the pass but not cry for the pass...
if gong gong continue his way in dis world.. he might be suffer
be tough kor ! en ! support u !

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guess what !!!!!!!???????

2008-11-25T17:05:00.004+08:00

mUAhahahhaha~~~~~~~~~~~

wo hui lai le ~~~~~~~~~~~
i am free like crazy~~~~~~~~~~
i miss you like crazy~~~~~~~~~~~
i miss pc like crazy~~~~~~~~
oh! intrnet oh pc !
muacks !! i love u so so so much~~~~~~~~~

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) 2008

Lembaga Peperiksaan Malaysia

~argh!!!!!! SPM is o-level....

muahahah~~ i finish i finish !!!!!!!!!!!!!

although tomorow still have Chinese.. but i considered it finish !

nenene buBU~~~~ =p =p

Composary Sujects

Malay Language (Paper 1 : structure [summary, literature,novel and so on] & Paper 2 : essay )
English Language (Paper 1 : stucture [same as malay] & Paper 2 : essay)
Modern Mathematic (Paper 1 : objective & Paper 2 : structure)
History (Paper 1 : objective & Paper 2 : stucture, essay)
Additional Mathematic (Paper 1 : short quetion & Paper 2 : long quetion)
Moral (structure & essay)

Excess Subjects

Biology (Paper 1 : objective & Paper 2 : structure, essay & Paper 3 : structure, experiment report)
Physics ( same )
Chemistry ( same )
Chinese Language (Paper 1 : structure, summary & Paper 2 : essay)

ohohHO~~~

i passed all subjects ! *caution chinese left* =.="

adoix~ really kacao me ><

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new life... new feeling.. new thing. new experience..

2008-11-13T23:57:00.003+08:00

~*hmmm...
what to say lehs?

~*new life?
yar... suddenly i felt that i changed..
i started a new life...
i forget the passs.. i forget forget FORGET!
and i met many friends...
they are nice frendly.... and.. dono xD

~*new feeling?
ya.. new feeeling..
many thing surround me give me feeling..
diferent feeling..
it's so nice, fresh, weird and memorable..
kaka.x. xD xD
and yet...
may i meet a new person in my life..
=.=
lalala..~ someone stayed my heart.. booked
aii, is it good or...? i dont know..
jz i rmbr the pass... it's so pain and so ... aii !

~*new thing?
ya! exam..
bigbigbig important..
sibeh important exam...

~*new experience?
haha..
met diff ppl bah... and experienced many things..
and, new feeling come !
but i dono whether i can accept it anot...
mayb i stil nid time? i dont know..
i dont have much confident.. the trust..
aii~ neys a neys~ tell me wad to do ~~~

ok ler bah...
good nights...

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WHY I SO LONG DIDNT UPDATE !?

2008-11-13T23:44:00.002+08:00

aiYOo...
i know i long time didnt update ler lerr...
so, tonight free and i got nothing to do..
so i come crap while.. =)

~*hmm.. recently i was preparing for my O-lvl..
actually is kanasai exam.. evryone hate it
IT SUCK MAN !!! SUCK !!
aaaiiii.... but what to do..
we have to sit for it ..

~*aii..
before exam come..
i was slacking all over.. and waiting tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow
telling myself..
chey, still have time ma.. read abit 1st..
akakakx.. xD xD

~*little little den become hills lor..
[sikit-sikit, lama lama jadi bukit]
aduix.. so last minutes also wont rush and suffer bahs..
fan zen, i worry bout my sejarah..
i super duper hate it ! OMG ! HISTORY MAN...
it's such a ... oioi medicine.. and those fking story
ARGH!!

~*ok..
registered 10 sujects..

bahasa malaysia
english
history
modern math
add math
chemistry
physic
biology
chinese
moral

now... 4 subjects passed..

bm
modern math
history
english

~*so..

next week will be very very tough ..

walao man ! all important siao subject....

ok la, work hard for it..

for the 2 weeks !!!!! after 2 weeks !!

i am one of the bird at the sky !! BIRD BIRD meis xD xD

~*laaaaa...

wanna thanks all that support me..

i love u all... muacks...

and thanks to greg and binnie~ for support me

although u all in SG T.T *touched*

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neysneys~~~ muack~

The Holidays ~

2008-10-08T15:18:00.014+08:00

That day... that day ..
which day arrr...?? =.=
last Thursday right? ya.. that day .. =)
i know i very bo liao lar.. haiyo ! >< Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
ya, Malays New Year.. kakax xD xD
so? we went to dad' friend house lor... at Sg. Lembing
what we ate? hmm.. rendang, nasi kapit, ketupat and kuih raya lor..
*ps : SG dont know what is dat xD*

Then hor~
after mum mum we went to the crystal house..
aii, dont talk about that.. i think i'm really a dumb
Crystal House ! what u will imagine if u hear that? a house made from crystal right?
i was like wtf? izit got such house? didnt hear before leh..
i was so exited man T.T .. i really believe got such house lo! because Sg. Lembing is a historical place and there absalutely hill town.. all house and shop on hill d ~ so vry dangerous when driving..

-=the journey=-curious? why i snapped it? muahahah ~ dont know lehs !
because.... it is.... a place that ... people .. used to ... process..
the ore or rocks ( mineral that contain metal ) muahaha !! but bomb it d ! kekex

-=continue the jorney=-
reached a village.. malay + chinese village.. hehe ~..
see, there's a qiao to walk in.. but we dont =)

-=30 minutes later=-

*screm* !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u see u see .. this wad crystal house meant !!!!!!! WTF ! kanasai !
destroy all my imagination.. =.=" walao eh ...
IS THE HOUSE FILLED WITH CRYSTAL AND SHOW FOR VISITORS !
anyways T.T
the crystals are unique, pretty and weird..see~ look like what? starfishsee~look like human brain ! =)this .. look like hamik lehs.. like something in the sea.. the rock with some seaweed and the small fish like it!

and .. we found this !
~*sister and meis.. in the cave ! this is the sample cave were ppl boom those rock and take the ore
~*orhs, i working.. mai disturb :p

wan le~ bai bai~

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*si lao ge.. hate u! >< >< >< !!!!!

hmm.. nothing do ? xD xD

2008-09-30T23:58:00.005+08:00

Hello...
i got nothing to do..
and tonight..
i just back from tuition..
and somebody said my pic look stupid !
ok, fine..
i decided to revenge.. =.=

Add Glitter to your Photos
*hey ! this picture is nice ok ! its represent my voice in heart T.T u dono xin shang !*

Personalized Glitter Graphics
*this what ugly call ! blueks !! no lar, actually he vry handsome d.. xD*

a kor.. greg said hor.. he want fight with u.. bad sia him.. i told him u in Air Force now.. ehs, crush him with airplane.. nenene bubu~ :p

and.. i didnt hide something from u !!! >< wuUuuwuuu.. T.T
he said i no hair.. u see.. he bullied me
and u know what he is?
EGGLESS ! he bo egg 1.. muahahaha..

just like u and me~
u (_*_) **********.. i ~~~~~~~~~~~~.. xD xD
whEee~

and.. now i feel that i will have nightmare soon !
my sis singing for her bf !
wtf ! check the time now !
12.05 a.m ok ! is morning le !!!!!!!
sing "Tian Mi Mi" wtf !!

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HALLOW~ HELLOW~ HELLO~ HI~

2008-09-30T23:20:00.014+08:00

Ok, fine.. dont blow me update post le !
my hand really lazy and i got nothing to post la !!
gRrrr.. F5 F5

o nar..
finished exam? finished trial?
ya, it seems vry vry happy.. but.. we just left 1 month 2 weeks to study for O-lvl ! wtf?
dont think it's still long long away ~ because, when u close ur eyes, open ur eyes..
it's around the corner.. *bling*

So, Thursday.. the last day of trial examination.. CHINESE paper !
then then then, we went for movie ! MOVIE !
at first, we decided to watch *Money Not Enough 2*
tickets brought..
then, they canceled and watch *Mamma Mia*
so, tickets gave to our classmates..
God.. =.=" nvm lar.. ask least i can go out and relax.. what movie also can.

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Ok, this movie show in new cinema.. so we went there.. so far ><
the cinema.. OH mama mia !
look like fortification !
oh God.. walk in, turn left, up stairs, turn right, up staris ! wtf ! -,-"
i was like.. walao, i just wanna watch a movie.. why my journey to the cinema so damn far!
unlike the Golden Screen Cinema. just walk in nia.. =.=" kanasai
and u know what ! whole cinema..
just 10 people ! 10 !
and i ran all over to sit.. wakkaka

Ok, show come.... this movie actually is bout music..
they sing more than talk.. musican movie bahs
it's a love story.. use music to present their movie..
a girl with 3 guys?! and dont know her daughter belongs to who?!
walao eh.. =.="" at first, it's kinda funny..
but 1 hour over.. i feel really bored..
sing sing sing and sing ..
but it might be a nice movies bah ! kekex.. xD xD
lucky ticket sold for 7 bucks ! if not i really *faint*

Compare ..
*Money Not Enough 2* -- moral values movie + funny
*Mamma Mia* -- love story + funny

haha~ oKies lar..
but i wanna watch money not enough 2.. but my friend has DVD ~
so.. borrow bahs =)

After movie, we went for a drink ~~
at Just Relax.. hahax.. xD xD
everybody was hungry oo..
so we ate there back home at 11pm .. early sia !
the 1st time i go out, back so early. broke record.

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Funny =.=

2008-09-21T18:11:00.007+08:00

Yo~~~
back with my lazy dumb hand again..
hahaha, didnt post for so long le..
^^ ps hor~

Errr..
Okies, my friend Vincent had recommended me to watch Fur TV =.=
it's super lame..
n u know what..
after i watched it, then there's nothing happen..
after i back from tuition.. bout 10pm ..
i came back and opened Mozilla..
WTH !??! it out with a notice

"use internet explorer u dope"

huh?? wad happen..
den i use internet explorer.. gonna post the video on blog..
so i search ... www.youtube.com
WTF !??!? cant go through it !!!!!!!!!!!!!
out with another notice again..

"you have been banned from youtube. the administrator blaa blaa blaa.. den there was a sound .. *muahahahhah*

WTF ?! i was shocked that time.. god, is it virus or something else?
=.= i gonna get from my bro this time.. if it contain virus..

Then the next day, my bro opened pc..
i was so scared.. later he scold me T.T
but, no.
kakax... xD xD he use internet explorer too..
den i tried open mozila, ehs ! can use le.. =.=
suan lar, no problem den ok le.. xD xD
at last i dont need get scold ma..

*dont use internet explorer,it suck man. slow like hell!! i searched a web then went to kitchen for 15 minutes come back. IT's STILL LOADING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Ok lar..
here come a video.. ~.~

Hot Pussy

hahahahaha ~~~ dont simply think o~~ xD xD
enjoy barhs..
taz..

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心的痛

2008-09-21T17:30:00.002+08:00

说谎 --> 被骗 + 伤痛

谎话，我相信很多人都有说过。只是我们都不常说。
其实谎话真的能造成一个伤痛。那种痛，是每个人都不一样的。
有些谎话会让人造成一辈子的伤，有些是短暂的伤。

对我来说，
那种痛是刺刺的，心碎，流血。杀那间来的种种感觉。
要笑呢?要哭呢？要生气呢？要讨厌呢？
我选择原谅，忘记。
也许我不懂得生气，也不知道为什么，什么原因好让自己生气。

在一个人的人生中都会遇到不同的挫折。
不同的伤，不同的痛，不同的伤害，不同的事件。
其实，受伤能让一个人成长，更懂事。
我姐姐是这么告诉我的。
对，我赞成。
当一个人遇上了不同的伤害，意识就是他已经遇上了不一样的挫折。
他学会了，学会怎样去应付。
以后，他不会再傻傻为同一件事情而伤心。
他知道他应该要相信还是不相信。
可是，有时候。我们遇见了同一件事情，我们都会用同一个方法去面对。
自己，又在一次的受伤害。
人，总是会说不会做。
这就是人的本性。。。。。

承诺。
谁相信承诺呢？
答案只有一个。每个人都相信承诺。
是真的，每个人。。。。

你父母告诉你，会带你到哪里哪里旅行，你会把它当真。

“那是你与你父母的承诺”

你情人告诉你，我会永远爱你，保护你，你选择相信他，虽然你知道那是不可能的。

“那是你与你请人的承诺”

你朋友告诉你，我们友谊永固，会永远记得你，你也这样认为，虽然你知道以后你们会分开到不同的地方。

“那是你与你朋友的承诺”

承诺总是带着甜蜜，可是它却含有痛苦。
某某没有遵守承诺，你会感到伤心，生气，伤痛。
对阿，它就是那么的痛。
试问在你们一生中，有多要承诺，又有多少承诺是真的呢？
对，你答应某某我会怎样怎样。那是很甜很好听的啊！可是，你做到吗？
所以，不要随便给与承诺。不要制造伤害。

原因。
很多人都会问，为什么？为什么？为什么？
那个为什么有很多很多原因。
有些事情需要给于原因，有些反而永远都给不到原因。
我们只能选择沉默。

为什么爸爸妈妈不要我呢？为什么要把我抛弃呢?为什么我在孤儿院呢？
为什么她要和我分手呢？为什么我们要吵架呢？为什么她不喜欢我呢？
为什么她要背叛我？为什么她要在我背后说八卦呢？

很想知道对吧？不敢问？没答案？得不到？
哈哈，对。。有些为什么就是等于零。
就是没原因。
人啊，有时有些原因应该说出来的就说吧。
为了让对方简要更少伤害。说出来也无妨阿。只要你让人家知道。那人家就没有遗憾了阿。

不要说你做不到，因为你还没去尝试。
有些事情并非我们想象中那么糟糕啊。
为什么不要给自己一个机会争取呢？
哪知后果不是你想象中的那样啊？

*greg, there's nothing. so. dont sorry. nothing to do with it*

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Happy mOOn MOOn fest ~~~ o.o

2008-09-14T22:31:00.004+08:00

HAPPY MOON MOON FEST !!!!

but then why.. :(
STUPID TRIAL !!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY YOU COME NOW !!!!!!!!!! BREAK MY FESTIVAL !!!!
I HATE YOU !!! DUMB DUMB YOU !!!

imagine now...
kids, adult.. teenage... areeeee...
enjoying their fest..eating this... T.T

whereas.....
i in here !!!!!!
eating this !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sad ... T.T

i should be at outside now..
but.. suan la..
dont wanna lie to my parents..
go friend house study den go celebrate..
so.. decide not to ask..
eRrrr, some extra reason also ...
dont feel wanna talk to my dad.. T.T
i jz dono y he cant understand at me at all... i jz nid some rest after study...
is it too over..? :( sorry dad

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New Born..?? 3 ?!?!?!? What ?!??!!?

2008-09-09T13:51:00.010+08:00

Omg?! my "mami" born baby again......??????

WHAT !?
*plox* 3 ?????? 3 "CHILD" ?!??!!?
wtf.. not enough "pit pit" to drink milk !!!!!! poor babies ~~

Mami.. thanks you for giving me another 3 brothers and sister T.T

*touched*
awww... ~~ so.. you all must guai guai ting hua o~~ =)
MUST HEAR WHAT I SAY LER .. !! mUAhahahah~~ xD xD

~meet my brothers and sisters and my family.. :p

~*my new brothers and sis
~*omg ?!?! family of... 7 ?!?!?

~*wahaha.. it's meis and little sister~ :p

SOooOSOOSoooOSOOSooooSOooo...
it's my bro and sis and mami and dady.. MUAHahahhHAHhahahaHAHhaha... !!!

kor~ ur "siblings" o.. kakax.. xD xD

*ps : broken english.. T.T
o la, ola.. communicate with you la.. zzz

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well well well...

2008-09-07T20:08:00.008+08:00

Erm, recently la hor.. i la hor.. play la hor...
meetoto la horr...
meet many new friends la horrr...
they are really nice la actually ... akaak...

and la hor... one of them are singaporean la hor...
gregory his name.. if i not wrong la.. :D he study .. err.. dono wad technology d.. something related to computer ba..
and he like metal.. well, the noisy noisy "thing"... hahaha.. =)
and he sing, not bad oso.. but not chinese la !! xD
here, he recommended me a song.. his favorite singer.. aww~
*oh ya, it's a nice song .. haha.. love it :D

Not Good Enough
Escape The Fate

Hurtful words,
From my enemies of the last five years,
What's it like to die alone?

And how does it feel when tears freeze,
When you cry?
The blood in your veins is twenty below.

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget.

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window,
Make sure you're still alive,
Just in time to kill you,

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget

( I can't take this take anymore )
( I can't take this take anymore )
I cannot feel what you've done to me what you've done to me
( I can't take this take anymore )
( I can't take this take anymore )
What you've done to me

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window, ( window.)

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget.

and ya, he is a mixer child.. kakax~ *rojak* :D

father American?
Grandpa British?
Mother Taiwanese?
Mother side Japanese?

hell man.. haha~ well, i dont really see his face.. but hmm, quite mix.. hahaha...

Next..~~ i read newspaper today...
China Express 中国报
and the news i noticed were ...

RAPE RAPE AND RAPE

DEATH IN NAKED UNDER THE BED ??
AN OLD MAN DIED ON BED OF HOTEL ??
JUST BORN BABY BEEN THROWN IN DUSTBIN ??

hell man, now this world really more and more dangerous and evil.. =.=
what kind of incident also can happen anywhere anytime.. *BEWARE*
and, erm..
those guy who like to rape.. =.="" feel bit angry and disgusting..
eh, ur little brother really cannot wait for while mehs?? or find chic la.. =.= although need to pay, but cheap wad.. and u can do anything you want.. why 1 to rape those innocent girl, woman or ah ma lehs.. =.= gosh !!

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Born or Death

2008-09-07T19:46:00.015+08:00

Well guy.. my little cute hammy jz died.. yesterday...
and dono when was he die..
he is a good hammy anyway, he dont bites human :( he dont bite me only..
i love him so much.. how come u leave me alone.. SAD *T.T**well, his eye =.= ate by another hammy.. hammy eat meat?die ady still 1 eat.. aii

Ok, in the others..
my Guinea pigs having baby now.. =.=
really dono how many times she wanna born baby~ horny sia..

~*family of four..~*meimei got baby..see her leg, stomach too big ady.. hv to take out 1 leg.. >< ~*see, stomach big big lerr~ euw, saw binbin d bird bird xD
aww, seriously ba really touch when i see meimei pragnant.. can feel that my mom got me dat time.. euw, so suffer o.. T.T *emo* mei, sayang u~~ but u must wait me see ny can born baby hor.. \./ hmm, bad sia u, last time born didnt wait me back from school.. hurh !

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2008-09-06T18:38:00.006+08:00

W3ll guys, i dono what to post lol..
many ppl request for and "tou su" for not updating my blog.. >< >

学造句
老师　 :　＂乳＂也代表小，譬如乳猪，乳儿．．．
老师接着让小明造句～
小明　：　我家没有钱，所以买了乳房．
老师摆着，说重造一个．
小明　：　我个子低，所以只能跳过一跳乳沟！
老师飚汗，　＂也不算！再造一个！＂
小明　：　真地想不起来，我的乳头都快想破了！
＊老师晕倒＊

可怜的小牛
有一天一只小牛哭着从鸡乡跑回去找牛爸爸！
牛爸爸看见小牛哭哭啼啼的便问　：　＂小牛，你怎么啦？＂
小牛　：　＂我刚才被鸡乡里的鸡追杀＂
牛爸爸　：　＂为什么啊？你们感情不是很好的吗？＂
小牛　：　我只是开心地和它们道别，他们就立刻追着我来杀了！＂
牛爸爸　：　＂你是怎样到别的啊？＂
小鸡　：　＂我说　　　　　大鸡BYE, 小鸡BYE, 老鸡BYE, 全村鸡BYE !!!!!!!!!!!＂

Finished see crap le..? hahaha..
cheer you all up nia.. got laugh ?? xD
k lar, here come a topic..

BF AND GF
BOY FRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND

hello there, i believe everyone know what is BF AND GF la kies, dont act stupid hor.. :D
k, then how you wish ur couple treat u lehs??

good
bad
cool
rude
care
patient
understanding

haha, stupid also will know sure choose to be GOOD, CARE, UNDERSTANDING AND PATIENT
but, what we wish will really get it? NO!! it may get sometimes, but not always. remember. not always.cz nothing is perfect =D
but can u imagine u have a GF or BF treat u like hell? just like a dog... when both you are sweet, good, happy, that absolutely like live in heaven.. but when one of you are angry, it's like hell.. angry really will become retionalLESS?? izit this the reason? NO!! no matter how angry, please dont throw out those silly hurting and fking words.. nobody can accept it if exchange with urself.. but, quite pointless talk to those PEOPLE, not animal.. even animal also know what is feeling and the need love too.. appreciate what you have, dont make it loss or spoil it yourself.. there is no U-turn, it's not on the road.. is on the HEART.. the TIME.. make your decide as well as use ur brain too.. =.=

*ps : it's not saying myself experience k*

Next.....

FRIEND

what is friend..? ask about urself.. :p
my opinion, friend is :

a person who can let u throw out all ur problem that u cant tell your parents
a person who understand you
a person who willing to help you
a person who support you always
a person who do not play backstab
a person who you can trust
a person who can help you
a person who bring goods to you *not mean profit la*

so, what your opinion about FRIEND ?? ask bout urself.. :D
=.= we dont hope a friend who like to say bad words about you or backstab on u.. haha, everyone noe that is not a good feeling.. :)
but, it's hard to say.. no matter how good a friend there's sure something dont like and say bout it.. SURE WILL !!
but, they think b4? if u r the person who get serve like dis, wad ur feeling..? wont be better than the victim too.. so, behave..
it's a sis of my friend la.. pity her =(
dont sad ba, u will meet a better one.. or better group ! haha.. life is full of tough and anything mar, jz treat as an experience lurrr..~~ :D

finish le.....

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2008-09-01T15:53:00.012+08:00

Hi everybody.. ~~
noe today what date?? 2nd of SEPTEMBER.... =x
Malaysia calendar really no this date ler.. i didnt lie.. T.T

THE YEAR WITHOUT 1ST SEPTEMBER 2008

a kor.. u see.. it's no 1st of SEP.. i know it's SG teachers day rite today..??? kakakax~~
but seems like got ppl birthday wor.. forget .. really cant rmbr la !!! xD hehex..

K lar, stop teasing SOMBODY lerr...
today.. ehem, i means 12am la..
i phone to SINGAPORE lehs.. kakakk~ cz of sombody lur..

here come i tell u all my early plan.. ><

borrowed earphone from pek 4 days ago...
didint test at all..
yesterday, i went MEETOTO.. think wanna sing a song.. so i try my mic on msn.. not funtioning.. so cancel it..
wanna wish kor in msn d.. but lehs, dam sked ler.. i talk alone meh since he has no mic.. pai seh lar ><
den he offline ady .. i also dono.. so i msged him.. he said dat he sleep !!!!!! OMG cannot..
den suddnly i think of.. OH YA, my maxis number offering me phone to SG few months ago.. den i didnt reload it, so it's still in expired, cant call cant msg..
i msg pek for transfering money or reload for me.. OMG !! msg replied.. "bo, sorry" dissapoint..
then i ask my sis, she say her bf fetch her go bus stop, close shop ady.. cant reload.. !! *dang* i was like.. wth.. T.T huuuu... ><
oh ya ! 1 more.. lings o~ i msg her.. wow !! i lucky sia.. msg come.. "ya, i jz reload, how send..teach me"
*blings* i was like.. ahahah.. got help le~ whEee..
okies den.. credit have 12bucks.. den i redeem my reward point.. 100 points = rm1 .. i choose 500 points = rm5.. so my credit is 17 bucks now .. !! 5 buck free lehs, nice sia..
then i msg with a kor.. to make him not to sleep !! F5 F5.. i kick him..
*dang dang danG* 12am come ler.. i talking to pek.. so sked to phone.. ><"
at last, i pick up my phone.. type the number.. and....... call !
*dut dut dut* so many times ler still havent pick.. i was waiting n waiting.. so sked kor sleep ady.. den wait while more..
OMG !! no more *dut dut* sound.. wad i gonna say ?!?!?!

HAHAHAHA.. lucky a kor sound 1st.. if not i stun there ady.. ><"
sry kor.. it's really very nervous sked and shy sia.. hahah~ real life i am not shy la.. hahaha .. funny quetion sia..
then we chat n chat~ hahahx.. the 1st he talked, i was like.. "haaaa....???? his voice !! dam nice man" seriously, it's vry nice.. diff from wad i imagined.. kakakakx ~~
he slang like TAIWANESS.. definitely diff from Malaysia chinese o..

ok~ gonna oioi ler.. "我挂咯“ walao !!!!!!!!!!!
dis is the sentence which shocked me much !!!!!!!!!!! OMG..
SG : 我挂咯
MY : 我盖电话咯/我关电话咯

whEee..~ hahahah... =.=" hmm, proud hv a kor with nice voice.. LOL ! xD ok closed phone.. it's time to check balance.. USE 8 BUCKS sia~~~~ wow.. nvm la .. it's cheap ler compared to offerless.. here wanna tell kor ~~

WISH U HAPPY BRITHDAY...

LOVE YOU ALWAYS.. MUACKS..
JIA YOU HO..~~
PRESENT LATER NY SEND U O..
NEXT TIME GO SG MUST TREAT ME MUM MUM~~
AS U HAVE PROMISED~~
ICE CREAM ICE CREAM.. KAKAX.. xD

cake for you my bro..

haPPy brithday to yoU~ hapPy bird day to you~
hapPy bird day to you~~
hapPy burst day to wei bin~~ ^*^

-sm-

introduce~

2008-08-30T22:21:00.003+08:00

Halo... here come something ~~

~*wearing librarian uniform... *vivit*

And.. i got this !!!!!

~*my cert.. and the bottle of star.. kakax.. xD

so sad that i am not a librarian anymore..
although we have happy, sad, anger and disappointment
but i still appreciate what we go on for so long..
miss the day i duty with my friend.. *friday*
ya, i love u all.. but have to go now.. we wont duty gather more.. ><
just hope that we still in contact..
and, we are always the best LP !!! yay~~ ^^
wish our school library will improve much ba..
as what teacher said, and what principle promised

Good Bye Library, Good Bye My Job..

aaa.. I Am Not A Librarian Anymore.. >< !!!

2008-08-30T20:47:00.042+08:00

Today.. Saturday..............................

Time : 3.oo pm - 6.45pm
Venue : Hotel Seri Malaysia

Okies.. today was our school library..

ANNUAL FAREWELL OF LIBRARIAN SABS 2008

ya !!!! you~~ this farewell was made by the new librarian year 2008.. those librarians are really friendly, kind and so on.. xD
comes.. here some pic..~~~

*click to enlarge*

~*open ceremony with the BREAK DANCE represented by students from SMKAP~~

~*the situation in the ball room~~*the chairman of this farewell~*our MC ~*our Librarian Chairman.. the Chairman of Libry 2007-2008 - Goh Wan Yee
~*the chairman of Library year 2008-2009 - Fedrick
~*the Library teacher - Pn. Norlela
~*School principle - Pn. Azahariah (she's humor, friendly and responsible)
~*Choir present song with their sweet voice~
~*attention ! guys, he definitely look like CHICKEN LITTLE !! NO LIE !!

~*sing Malaysia song..

HERE COME MY PHOTOS WITH OTHERS LIBRARIAN ~ *winks* ~

~*mei and kwang yan..
with her spec xD~*all sot sot librarian.. =)~*mei and GSC.. xD shuen chien.. izit like dis? LOL dono..
~*mei and teacher lo~~ ^^~*mei and sam *kor kor xD* i want plox him ady..
~*mei and leon yee~~~ (yi pai=一排 xD)
~*mei and kui yuan.. the treasurer (we used to call him DONG GUAI 当归 *kind of medicine)
~*mei and jia wen.. euw! she kissed me >< ~*mei and jia wen.. (another girl =x form 4)
~*mei and xin ling.. (syiling)
~*mei and wann wei.. wow, i sweat sia.. *hot*~*mei and farewell chairman.. (dono wad name, sry ><) ~*mei and the form4 librarian.. JIA WEN not la, u old d xD..~*mei and suet chui..
~*mei and yong tack mang !! he got the BEST LIBRARIAN.. and pengetua (principle)gave him 50 bucks >< ~*mei and dono who.. still curious why he wrote my name behind his paper !! ><" ~*mei and fedrick.. kakax..
~*mei and meng hong.. (seriously he's really look like a wood OMG!! but dont judge the book by its cover)~*mei and pekkKKkkkK~~ woOOoo
~*mei, wood and pei che.... look like i am bulb =x~*me and this.. dono wad name.. peiche's cousin

Post for 29th August.. kakax.~ pai seh lur >< !!

2008-08-30T20:24:00.007+08:00

Hi all...~ lOL !!
eRm, what to say about todays lehs... OH YA !! yesterday rite, i didnt wish my dad brithday.. at last i didnt do it.. =.=" feeling me as a daughter very bad.. T.T *emo*

K la..nvm.. aIiii.. okies.. today went to school.. =.=
ONLY 4 CHINESE !!!!!!! wtf... &(#!@^(*^!@(_#!@^ all put air-plane sia.. F5 F5 bad !! u guys really gonna get from us d..
hmmm, then wad we do in school today lehs? as u all know rite.. 31st of August is

Malaysia Independent Day

Tunku Abdul Rahman~~ Beliau, He brough us independent.. and sound MERDEKA around.. 7 or 17 times a.. i forget ady.. *paiseh, not malaysian =x*
So, we sang Jalur Gemilang, Keranamu Malaysia and 31 Ogos 1957.. i admit it, its quite nice song.. hehehex~ u all 1 hear go find la xD
den went back class play fool around.. den after recess we decided not to go for Physic classes.. so we went to libry.. OMG !! the stupid Zin Eu walk infront teacher.. and teacher saw him and ask him told him dat got Physic classes today.. Aiiii, den assistant monitor come libry find us..
Make teacher mad sia.. but at last nothing ler.. *she pragnant, sry teacher ><* Okies, then in Physic Classes the Malay guy open song from his handphone.. aaa~ nice..
then he showed me video.. OMG !! accident video, some kind of disgusting ba.. and here come the funny 1..
u noe waD? he and 3 friend..

CHARACTER :

Fareed - camera man
2 Friends - actor
1 Friend - victim, main charac..

i really pity of dat frIend sia.. u all 1 c y i feel pity.. come i show u all.. =)

MANYAK KESIAN INI BUDAK

*sorry lol*

okies lar... finish laugh ler.. den stop it and delete from your mind..
*ha ha ha ha ah aha ha *
but really funny !!!!!!!!! xD

tatatzz~~

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☻☻☺☺♥sǒǖlع١٥٧ spǐr↓t♥☺☺☻☻

25/12/2011 5.41am

新包装 New Packaging. ：D

沉默的夜晚。。。

男人 vs 是/不是 处女的妻子

你不在的时候，我有多难受。

WORDS for HIM !

～我的他，他的我～

决定

味道，不一樣！

~*我的小甜甜*~

Re memory...

做我老婆好不好？？

徐譽滕 ： 做我老婆好不好

網友們的心聲 ：

老公，雖然我不能無時無刻都陪在你身邊。

可是我的心永遠都有你的存在，直到我的心停止跳動。

就算我死了，我還會留下我的貝殼。

Oppss..

Some words

The words..

朋友

Lamo ~

15.10.2009 .. A date with Dear <3

Deva Night 9.10.2009

期待，渴望，等待

A Shocked

Xin Ling's Birthday.. 28.9.2009

The Night...

混乱的心情

透明人 ==

~姐妹们~

咱们的回忆

the morning of 15.8.2009

15.8.2009

14.8.2009

Love? Relationship?

**boring**

Feel Guilty....><

INTI college's life

hao jiu bu jian~ long time no see~

我的心情，我能面对吗？

蜻蜓

我也愿望也就是我的烦恼

缘分....

The Feelings...

SPM result..

wo hui lai le ~~~~ i am back !`!~!!~!~

Raining Day....

The Growth! ~.~

dEng D3ng deng~`~~~

Back to Hotel lerr !! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

Genting Highland

Holidays..~~

ended.... evrything..

很冷的一个晚上。。

雨天。。。。

hmmm...

The first thing i did... after....

guess what !!!!!!!???????

new life... new feeling.. new thing. new experience..

WHY I SO LONG DIDNT UPDATE !?

The Holidays ~

hmm.. nothing do ? xD xD

HALLOW~ HELLOW~ HELLO~ HI~

Funny =.=

心的痛

Happy mOOn MOOn fest ~~~ o.o

New Born..?? 3 ?!?!?!? What ?!??!!?

well well well...

Born or Death

*exited* *nervous* *scared*

introduce~

aaa.. I Am Not A Librarian Anymore.. >< !!!

Post for 29th August.. kakax.~ pai seh lur >< !!

男人 vs 是/不是处女的妻子

~我的小甜甜~

徐譽滕：做我老婆好不好

網友們的心聲：

boring

exited nervous scared